HELLO EVERYONE... MY FORUM DBSK/TOHOSHINKI IS CELEBRATING ITS VERY FIRST YEAR ANNIVERSARY... SO WE ARE DOING SEVERAL CONTESTS TO CELEBRATE THIS SPECIAL EVENT. PLEASE HELP US OUT BY VOTING FOR THE ENTRIES HERE... END OF VOTING WILL BE ON SEPTEMBER 15, 2009.
ENTRY 1
Always and Forever
“TVXQ’s manager, Mr. Jang had stated that one of TVXQ’s members, Xiah Junsu or Kim Junsu will be rested for a while. TVXQ’s leader, U-Know Yunho also mentioned that during their latest fan meeting at Seoul last Saturday.”
Mi Young stared at the television, looking at Junsu’s photo that was displayed on the television right now. Her heart aches everytime she thinks about him. She quickly switched off the television.
“I’m sorry, Junsu…” She said, as a tear escaped from the side of her eyes, slowly trailing down towards her cheek.
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“Hyung, are you sure this is a good decision to be made?” Changmin asked Yunho worriedly, as he glanced at Junsu’s composing room. He had been locking himself in that room after he came home late one day. He came homedrunk, and he was slightly crying.
“What do you mean? Resting Junsu for a while? It is not my decision Min, it’s Mr. Lee’s order.” Yunho said, as he watched the news on the television about their group.
“I wonder what’s wrong with that kid. I thought he was so happy all these times. Why suddenly he changed like that?” Jaejoong commented as he too was watching the news while munching his takoyaki.
Yoochun on the other hand, was sitting silently beside them, while thinking hard about what may have changed Junsu like that. He remembered Junsu said that he was going to meet Mi Young that night…
“Hyung, I want to go out for a while,” Yoochun suddenly stood up, shocking the others. They all looked at him weirdly.
“Where are you going? You know, the fans would probably already gathered down there,” Jaejoong said, as Changmin and Yunho nodded at his statement.
“Yea, that could be true also.’ Yoochun thought, as he sits down back on the sofa, in between Changmin and Jaejoong. He thought hard for a while when he suddenly thought of someone.
“I’ll be in my room,” he said, and quickly dashes towards his room
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Mi Young cried hard once again. She was all alone in her apartment, few kilometers away from TVXQ’s apartment. Junsu had bought the apartment specially for her; he gave it to her for their 2nd anniversary last February.
Yoochun had just called her, asking whether Junsu had met her that night. She tells the truth, she didn’t lie about what happened between them that night. Yoochun was already like her own brother whom she doesn’t have.
Yoochun told her how miserable Junsu looked that night, and asked her whether she knew what had made him changed like that.
She didn’t tell Yoochun about her sickness, not yet, not until Junsu manages to get over her.
She only told him that she wanted a break up.
Now she was crying, she was so sad that Junsu had to suffer because of her. She really doesn’t want him to suffer, he was so valuable to her, and she doesn’t want him to be hurt even a bit.
But fate had already decided, it’s either now or later, less painful or more painful.
She chose to break up with him now, she don’t want him to cry because of her sickness.
She loved him too much that she doesn’t know how to tell him the truth and breaks up with him instead.
“Junsu… I love you… Forever…” She said between her sobs, as her head started to get dizzy…
++
“Yoochun hyung! Look what I found out!” Changmin suddenly exclaimed while they’re having their breakfast without Junsu. Changmin was currently reading the newspaper while Yoochun was reading a magazine. Yunho and Jaejoong were watching television in the living room, as they all were given holidays by the company.
“What?” Yoochun replied in irritation, everything seems to irritate him nowadays. He doesn’t know why but he feels like something is bothering him lately. Maybe it is because of Junsu, maybe it is because of Mi Young.
“This! You see, a girl named Kwon Mi Young needs help from the caring citizens of South Korea to donate some money for her operation. She had been sick for the past few years and that’s when the doctor told her that she got the two killers, brain cancer and a heart disease, both at the last stage. She needed 100 USD to undergo the operation in US in just one week. To all caring citizens of South Korea, please help to save this young girl that has a bright future,” Changmin reads the whole article. At first, Yoochun wasn’t paying attention but when the name was mentioned, he grew alert. Of course, the band members knew that Junsu had a girlfriend but they never meet her or know her personally, even knowing her full name. They only know that Junsu called her Mimi, and she’s a 17 year old girl.
“Min, give me that newspaper please,” Yoochun demanded, as Changmin passed the newspaper to him and looked weirdly at him.
Yoochun quickly scanned the newspaper, looking for the hospital’s name where she was staying right now.
“Hyung, are you interested with that girl?” Changmin asked jokingly, but Yoochun snapped at him. “Shut up Min.”
Changmin pouted sadly as he walked towards the living room. “I was just joking…”
Finally Yoochun found the hospital’s name and quickly scribbled it down on a memo pad. He looked at the hospital’s name with a sad gaze.
“Mi Young, why didn’t you tell him…”
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“Yoochun oppa…” Mi Young was currently reading a magazine when someone dressed in a coat and large sunglasses entered her room. Luckily her room is a private room, she quickly recognize that person as Yoochun.
“Mimi, why didn’t you tell him about it? Why let him suffer?” Yoochun asked Mi Young, as he took a seat next to her on the bed and hugged her lightly. Mi Young was shocked at the sudden visit from Yoochun, but understands when she remembered a column saying about her sickness.
She broke the hug slowly, pushing Yoochun away from her. “Oppa…” She said, getting Yoochun’s attention on her.
“Tell me Mimi… Do you know how much Junsu suffered right now?” Yoochun said as he started to cry, he was so sad, how could someone whom he care so much would be sick like this and end up hurting?
“Yoochun oppa, do you know that I suffered more than him? I was the one who wanted the separation, I don’t want him to cry over my dead body. Oppa, it is already too late if I wanted to undergo an operation. The hospital is just lying, all they wanted is money. My sickness is at the last stage already, there’s nothing they can do to cure me…” Mi Young said slowly, as she wipes away the tears from her face. Just thinking about Junsu makes her cry
“Mimi, why don’t you tell me then? I could have helped you…” Yoochun’s voice trailed, as Mi Young stopped him from talking by placing her finger on his lips.
“Oppa, that’s the main reason. I don’t want you to waste your money on me. I’m just someone, not your family members. I don’t deserve your money oppa, although you’re the closest person to me…” Mi Young said, her voice quivering, she was sobbing madly right now.
“Hush, don’t cry Mimi. You’ll be more sick if you continue to cry like that. Stop crying, okay?” Yoochun said, as he hugged Mi Young once again. He loved her so much, he loved her like his own little sister, he really cares about her… And he doesn’t want her to suffer, but she’s just too
stubborn.
++
Unknown to Mi Young, Junsu had locked himself inside the composing room for days already. During the times he was in there, he keeps on thinking about Mi Young, how pale and tired she looked that night. No, he’s not crying because of her. He was thinking about her, day and night, thinking the reason why she wanted the separation. He recalled all the memories of them together, not once he remembered making her sad.
He knew, something is definitely not right. He had never attempted to make Mi Young sad, so that will not be the reason why she wanted to break up.
As he was thinking, he remembered about his band members. He had been locking himself since days ago and his band members would probably go insane thinking about him. He decided to go out and apologize to them, while still looking for the main reason of the separation.
++
“Junsu hyung! Are you alright? Oh my, Yunho hyung, Jaejoong hyung! Junsu hyung already went out from the room!!” Changmin shouted, making Junsu’s pitiful ear suffer for a while. Soon enough, sound of ruffling could be heard and seconds after that, Jaejoong, Yunho and Changmin had already hugging
him.
“Wah~ Hyung! Stop hugging me! Changmin, stop it! What’s wrong with you guys?” Junsu said, pushing Jaejoong, Yunho and Changmin off him. He was even more worried right now, what’s wrong with his band members?
“How could you said that to us Junsu! We’re deadly worried about you, you have been locking yourself in that room for how many days already without going out, how on Earth are we supposed to know your condition, whether you’re still alive or what…” Jaejoong started to scold Junsu, but that is
because he loved Junsu so much. Junsu was already like his own family members, in fact TVXQ are already like families
“I’m so sorry hyung…” Junsu said, as he hugged Jaejoong tightly, repeating ‘I’m so sorry’ all the time. He had started crying by now, this is the first time he cried after that night.
As they were busy hugging each other, Yoochun on the other hand had just arrived from the hospital. He was surprised to see nobody at the living room when the television was switched on. He then heard a sound coming from the kitchen, so he went there. There he saw Junsu being hugged by Yunho,
Jaejoong and Changmin.
“You’re fine,” Yoochun said, as they break the hug and turned towards him. Changmin leaped forward and suddenly hugged Yoochun, Yoochun was taken aback by Changmin’s sudden reaction.
“Whoa! Changmin.. What are you trying to do?” Yoochun said, as Yunho, Jaejoong and Junsu laughed at Changmin’s behavior. Yoochun looked at Junsu as he saw that pair of eye was watching him intently.
++
Junsu was browsing through the newspapers when he suddenly saw the column about Mi Young. He was so shocked to find out that she break up with him because she’s ill. He bet Yoochun knew about this. He called Yoochun on the spot.
“YOOCHUN!!!” His voice travels to every part of the house. Yoochun who was in his room, sending text messages to his friends could even hear that clearly. He rushed towards the direction of the sound to find Junsu sitting in the kitchen, looking at a newspaper.
“Yes Junsu?” Yoochun said, as he took a peek at what Junsu was reading. When he saw the column, he understood the reason why Junsu called him here.
“What happened… to Mimi?” Junsu asked Yoochun, his voice was trembling. Yoochun looked apologetically at Junsu, he loved Junsu like his own little brother, and he don’t want to see him sad.
“You’ve read it, right? It’s stated there. I also just know it few days ago. When you’re PMS-ing…” Yoochun said, joking a little to reduce the intense atmosphere and succeeded when Junsu smiled.
“Yoochun, can I see her? I missed her so much…” Junsu stared at
the newspaper in his hand, reading the article again and again as if the
article would let him meet her.
++
“Yoochun, why are we dressing like this?” Junsu whispered to Yoochun as they made their way towards Mi Young’s room. Junsu followed suit behind Yoochun since he doesn’t know the direction. He keeps on looking at all the people who were watching them like a weirdo.
Of course people would take a second glance at them. Who on earth are going to wear a thick, dark chocolate coat, a baggy jeans, large sunglasses that covers half of your face and a beanie on a HOT day in a HOSPITAL?
After countless of minutes staring here and there, they finally arrived at Mi Young’s room. Yoochun have to pull Junsu in as Junsu didn’t see him went into the room and keep on walking like a crazy maniac in a hospital. People would have mistaken him as an assassin, or a kidnapper, thanks to the glares.
Yoochun and Junsu took off their thick coats and their sunglasses as Junsu slowly made his way towards Mi Young’s bed. She looked so fragile; he wondered if he touched her, she would just break easily. He took his seat next to the bed, facing her sleeping angelic face. He smiled; at last he can see her for the last time.
He carefully caressed her bony cheek, feeling the soft skin under his touch. He doesn’t want her to wake up but unfortunately, she wriggled a little bit before opening her eyes a little.
“I’m in heaven, am I?” She asked, or said to herself, as she smiled at Junsu. Junsu’s heart skipped a beat. It’s been a long time since he saw that smile on her face. He smiled back at her and shook his head slowly. “No, you’re still alive. You’re not dead, Mimi.”
Mi Young smiled even bigger. She slowly lifts her hand up, wanting to touch Junsu’s puffy cheeks, as Junsu guides her hand and rested them on his cheeks. “You feel so real…” She whispered, caressing Junsu’s face, making Junsu smile even wider.
“Of course I’m real. I’m right here, with you…” Junsu replied, as he too, caressed Mi Young’s cheek lovingly. They stared at each other lovingly; it feels like the time had stopped when they do that.
“Junsu…” Mi Young breathed out suddenly, when a painful feeling struck at her heart, making her hard to breathe. But she did not manage to hide the pain, so Yoochun who was sitting on the sofa nor Junsu realized her situation right now. “Can you promise me something?” She continued, as Junsu nodded his
head cutely at her.
“Please don’t cry because of me…” She whimpered, this time Junsu sensed something wrong with her. Her grip on his hand had tightened, as if she was in a lot of pain.
“I won’t… if that what you really wanted…” Junsu assures her, smiling at her even though he knows that her time had come.
Yoochun stood up in alarm when the life machine beeps louder. But Junsu just keep on smiling at her, although right now his heart is crying. He did that just for her, if she doesn’t want to see him cry, he won’t cry.
“Thanks Junsu. I’m sorry… sorry that we have to end like that…” Mi Young had broken her cold sweat by now; she was in a lot of pain indeed. She tightened her grip on Junsu’s hand, trying hard to fight the pain that was building up in her.
“No… we didn’t end anything, Mimi. I’m always right here for you, I will never leave you… I promise, I will never give my heart to someone else. I just want you…” Junsu said, trying hard to fight the need to cry, “-to be healthy and happy always, just for me…” He continued, forcing a smile on his
face.
“Junsu, no… You deserved someone… better than me… Please, promise me… If you found someone else, love her with all your heart… Urgh…” Mi Young whimpered in pain as she can feel her heart was going to burst anytime now. Her headache was going worse, it wasn’t helping either. Right now, she knew, her time has come.
Junsu looked calm, although inside he already wanted to burst out of the room to call for the doctor. But he knows, even if he called the doctor, Mi Young still couldn’t be saved. So he just stayed there with her,
looking at her features, memorizing her face and voice.
“Mimi, I love you, always and forever… I love you more than I love my own self… I just want you to know that, I will never give my heart to someone else…” Junsu smiled, at the same time he bit his lower lip to prevent himself from screaming. Just looking at your love ones dying, and you can’t do anything to help her… This is just too crazy to describe with words…
“Junsu.. ARGH! Junsu… I… I love you too… ARGHH!!!” Mi Young closed her eyes tight, her heart was hot right now, it feels like it is going to burst anytime soon, when her vision had started to slowly blur… She couldn’t see Junsu’s face clearly by now.
Yoochun who was watching all these times, couldn’t control himself anymore. Not bothering to disguise himself, he rushed out of the room and called the doctor on duty. The nurses gasp when they saw Micky Yoochun was running in the hospital, looking for a doctor.
“JUNSU!!!!!!!! I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!! ARGHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!” Mi Young screamed in a lot of pain, as her grip on Junsu’s hand tightened, making Junsu winch in pain, but of course that little pain means nothing compared to what Mi Young is going through right now… Few seconds later, her grip started to loosened, her eyes slowly closed on its will, as her body relaxed.
“Mimi, I’ll always love you, no matter you are…” Junsu said, as a tear finally glides down on his cheek, staining it. That’s when Yoochun barged into the room, with a doctor behind him, and a few nurses.
“Mimi? MIMI!!!” Yoochun screamed, as he saw the smile on Mi Young’s face, she had finally went through all the pain, she had rest in peace right now… Yoochun rushed forward, hugging Mi Young’s limp body, still couldn’t face the fact that his beloved little sister had left him forever.
Junsu slowly stood up, looking at Yoochun hugging Mi Young’s body just make him even more sadder. More tears come streaming out from his eyes, as he slowly walked towards the sofa, when suddenly he feels dizzy and his vision started to blur. Few moments later, he felt light, as his vision turns to black, he slowly falls down on the carpeted floor…
[The End]
ENTRY 2
THE STORY
“Yes, thank you for attending the ceremony.” Yoochun bowed politely.
That was the last guest that went home after the wedding reception had ended. Now there was only Ae Rin, Yoochun, and a few family members and close friends in the empty hall of an exclusive hotel. Many balloons and flowers scattered around, making the place a bit messy. They cleaned up, and then it was time for both of the wedding couple to be alone in their room.
Yoochun closed the door silently behind him. The hotel suite was extravagant as always, with a hint of lavender scent. The scent should have calmed the atmosphere between the two, but its magic did not work. Ae Rin turned around while her hands crossed over her chest.
“Where do you want to sleep?” She asked.
Yoochun looked around. There were two rooms in the suite. One master bedroom with all the comforting facilities, while the other was an ordinary one, specially made in case they were bringing along a maid. Yoochun walked lazily towards the latter and said,
“I’ll take this one.”
“Good.”
“Great.”
“We’ll continue our discussion tomorrow, over breakfast.” Ae Rin suggested.
“Whatever.”
Yoochun quickly closed the door to his room, while Ae Rin’s gaze followed him until he disappeared behind the door. She sighed and went to her own room. Before changing, she looked at her reflection in the mirror. She smiled weakly at herself in the white dress. Congratulations, Ae Rin… A single tear escaped her eyes and flowed to her chin, before it fell to the ground.
**********
Ae Rin looked at the clock. 6 a.m. She got up and stretched her sore limbs. She had only slept for 2 hours. Her body was still tired, not to say her mind that was working heavily last night, trying to come up towards a solution of this problem. She rubbed her temples for a while before going into the bathroom to clean herself.
Once she got out of the room, she went to the living room. It’s still too early to wake him up. Even though she dislike him as he was one of the cause of her current problem, she didn’t want to torture him further. She knew that he was feeling the exact as she was feeling too. Trapped. Trapped in this pitiful marriage.
She turned the news on and watched it without digesting anything. She stared at the screen and blinked. Suddenly, her cell phone vibrated. She read the message and smiled.
How was last night?
Don’t worry. If he does anything inappropriate to you
I’ll come there myself and smack him down!!(ò_ó)
Well, the message from Eun Ah really made her day better. She knew that despite all her hardships, she got someone to lean herself to. She had been best friends with Eun Ah since elementary school. They knew each other’s secrets. And now, she really needed her best friend’s support to go through this unplanned marriage. At least, the bride and groom did not plan it…
After a while, she stole a glance at the clock again. 8 a.m. Okay. Let us go and wake that sleepy head up.
“Yoochun... Yoochun… Wake up…” She tried, softly.
No movement.
“Yoochun! Wake up! It’s already 8 a.m.!” This time, she pulled hard the wedding suit that Yoochun did not get himself out of yet.
Still, even though there was a little movement and a grunt, he did not wake up.
Okay, let us see if you will still stay asleep after this…
Ae Rin pulled off the blanket that was covering his lower half and let it crumble up on the floor. She got on the bed, with a snicker on her face. Without any warning, she started jumping up and down of the bed, making Yoochun’s body move along with the sudden ‘earthquake’. This is kind of fun… She determined to continue jumping until the almost dead body in front of her wakes up.
“Ah!!!”
An invisible hand had pulled her forward, and now she was situated directly on top of Yoochun. Blood rushed into her face as she struggled to get away from his grip, and his intense, if not mad, gaze.
“What are you trying to do?” Yoochun asked. He never lifted his gaze as he spoke those words.
“I…I…”
“Hm? What? I didn’t hear you…”
He moved his face closer towards her. Her heart picked up its pace while she continued stuttering.
“I… You… Don’t get too close….”
“What?? We are married after all…” He leaned over and planted a kiss on her forehead. She glared at him. He ignored it, and continued to smile at her playfully.
“What time is it?” He asked.
“Eight.” Answered Ae Rin, short.
He got up and released Ae Rin before walking towards the bathroom. Ae Rin sat still on the bed bewildered. Before entering, he turned and said,
“What? You want to bathe with me?”
Blood almost rushed out of her cheeks when he said that. She picked up a pillow and threw it at him.
“You wish!!! Don’t forget, our discussion over breakfast!”
After that, Ae Rin stormed out of the room. Holding the pillow with his left hand, Yoochun sighed.
“I know, Ae Rin… I know…” He said, slow.
**********
It’s almost a month after their marriage. They are now living together with the other members as Yoochun still had his obligation towards the group. Of course, they were given a room to share, a room, which now had been divided equally for their own uses separately.
“So, hyung, how did it go?” Asked Changmin. That time Yoochun had only just finished unpacking into his new ‘couple room’. He breathed hard and crashed into the sofa in the living room while his hands grabbed a bottle of cold juice from his dongsaeng. He took a large gulp before answering.
“How did what go?”
“Um… You know, the marriage… With Ae Rin noona…”
“Hm… What do you expect?”
“Well… Um… Are we expecting any little hyungs??”
Yoochun laughed a little. He took another gulp and wiped his sweat with the end of his t-shirt’s sleeve.
“Well, that’s up to her…”
flashback
“I know that we don’t love each other and we still have the chance to find it later. So, it’s better if we don’t do anything that ties us down to this marriage, if you know what I mean…”
“You mean… No… children??”
“Yes, that’s exactly what I mean. So that it’s easier for us to… separate… later…”
“Why don’t we try first? Without us knowing, this marriage might just work…”
Ae Rin looked blankly towards Yoochun. She played with her food a little, trying to find a way to answer. It’s not that she didn’t want to, but she didn’t want to hold Yoochun back. She knew that his job brings him to meet a lot of people, and among those people might be someone that he loves. And what about her? She deserve to search her own true love too. Not to be tied to this marriage bond unwillingly like this…
“Never mind, just forget what I said. I will restrain myself, in one condition that you will never try anything that might provoke me…” Ae Rin’s expression turned sour. Yoochun smiled cheekily before continuing, “But I must tell you now, that if you ever changed your mind, I’ll be right here.”
End of flashback
**********
“Was that jealousy that I sense from the beautiful woman in front of me?”
“You wish.” Ae Rin didn’t bother to look at Yoochun’s face while she answered him. For what? He’s better off with that previous woman, who without shame sat on his lap. Hmph!
Yoochun continued smiling while he exchanged his seat to sit beside his wife. They are now in a private room in a club, where DBSK should have entertained a certain superior. Now that the superior had other agenda to attend to, they were free to hang out and relax in the club after a very tiring week. Their schedule was full of rehearsals, recordings and also interviews. Tonight was the only night in that particular week that Yoochun had the opportunity to spend some time with Ae Rin. He missed her so much.
“She’s nothing compared to you, my queen. If only you give me the chance to show it to you.”
“Yoochun! Our deal…”
“I have already found her, and it’s you. Come on… It had been a year since we married. Isn’t it about time that you give up? I really do love you, Ae Rin. Not because of the marriage. Not because of our fathers’ promise. It’s because of you. You… are so interesting… I have no boring days in my life with you…”
“Yeah right. You can sweet talk me all night and I will never surrender. Be it 10 more years, I believe that we can still find our soul mates later…”
“Ae Rin…”
“Enough. You should get some rest. Here, let me pour you a drink.”
Yoochun kept silent after that. He just watched as his wife swallowed down glasses after glasses of wine. The other members just watched the quarrel between the husband and wife, without any power to help any of them. Changmin just gave Yoochun a supportive smile. It’s all that he could do to help his hyung.
**********
“Uwekk!!!”
Ae Rin went to the bathroom for the thousandth time that night. She was still dizzy after drinking almost a bottle of wine at the club before. Yoochun supported her as she went back to her side of the bed.
“Are you sure you’re okay? Is there anything that I can help?”
“No, thanks…” She rejected his offer. They went back under their blankets while trying to drift back to sleep.
“Ae Rin!”
“Hm???” She answered weakly. Meanwhile, Yoochun’s hands had already reached her forehead. She did not have enough strength to push him away that night, so she just let him touch her. It’s okay, as long as it doesn’t bring us to…
“You’re as hot as a fresh baked potato!!”
Huh? What kind of idiom that he used? As a fresh baked potato?? She chuckled softly.
“We better bring you to a doctor or something…”
“No, I’m fine… Just go get a towel and a basin of water…”
Without any hesitation, Yoochun went and got all of the stuff that Ae Rin wanted. Without waiting for any instructions, he wet the towel and put it on his wife’s forehead. He could see that she was sweating a lot too, but if she changed her clothes now, it will be the fifth time tonight. She won’t have enough clothing later…
He looked at her face intently. Was it the wine, or that his heart really longed for her? In her drunken state, she looked very vulnerable. He leaned forward slowly and planted a kiss on her forehead. Without any reaction from her, he became more daring. This time he attacked her lips. She moaned a little but still, no other reaction. What happened afterwards was all in God’s power.
************
*knock*knock*
The door opened and a very angry face flashed past through Changmin towards Yoochun’s and Ae Rin’s room. Inside, Ae Rin was still crying on the bed while Yoochun sulked beside the window panes.
The little woman made her way towards Yoochun.
“What have you done to her??!!”
Yoochun did not answer. He continued to stare out of the window as if no one had asked him anything.
“Hmph!” After getting no response from him, she turned towards Ae Rin.
“Eun Ah…” Ae Rin called out weakly. Her voice hadn’t changed from the voice that Eun Ah had heard over the telephone about an hour ago.
“I’m here now… Don’t cry anymore…”
“Eun Ah… We… did it…” Another tear escaped her eyes. The two best friends hugged each other. Mean while, the other DBSK members were eavesdropping from the keyhole on the door.
“What?!! Didn’t you guys have a contract or something? A deal??” Raged Eun Ah.
Yoochun buried his head in his hands. “It’s all my fault. I’m sorry, Ae Rin…”
“You can be charged of rape!! You hear me??? From today onwards, she will stay with me. Just wait for our lawyer’s letter!!!”
“Wait!! Please don’t bring this to court…” Yoochun pleaded. “The group…”
“Oh… You care about the group more, don’t you??!!! How about the baby???”
“Come on… It was just one time… Baby???”
“Don’t play with this matter, mister!! You have to take responsibility!!!”
“But…”
“Fine. Don’t come searching for them afterwards. You made the choice yourself, live with it. Come on, Ae Rin. Let us leave this horrid place to my home.”
Without anymore said, Ae Rin left the apartment building. She left Yoochun.
**********
“Argh!!! Eun Ah!!! It hurts!!!”
“Just a little bit more, Ae Rin… A bit more. Hang in there!!”
“Yoochun! Yoochun…”
Ae Rin cried. Her tears of pain, tears of regret and tears of hope streamed down her cheeks. How she longed for Yoochun right now. She knew it at last, that she was wrong. Her soul mate was beside her all along; it was only her that was blind not to notice. She felt guilty towards Yoochun, towards her heart and towards her baby. She wanted him by her side now, to apologize…
“Eun Ah!!”
“Yes Ae Rin, I’m here… Hang in there!”
“Eun Ah, where is Yoochun?? Yoochun… Yoochun… Argh!!!”
“Mrs Park, push!!!” The doctor instructed.
“Mph!!!”
She was sweating all over. Her face was white, as she had lost too much blood. Even the doctor, with a worried face, whispered something to the nurse beside him. Ae Rin knew something was wrong.
“Eun Ah… You’re my best friend… right?”
“Yes!! Forever…”
“Please, for one last time, do me a favour?”
“No! Don’t say it like that! You’re going to go through this just fine!”
“Eun Ah! Please, one last favour?” Her tone soften.
Eun Ah nodded slowly while her hands were still holding Ae Rin’s tightly.
“I want Yoochun… Tell him… I have something for him… Tell him… I want to see him… Tell him… I’ll be waiting…”
Then, she passed out. The nurse pushed Eun Ah out of the delivery room while the doctor prepared a table for surgery. Eun Ah hesitated for a while. Her fingers played on the keypad of her cell phone, thinking whether to call Yoochun or not. At last, she gave up to their friendship, and dialed his number.
**********
Yoochun searched high and low for the little woman who called him earlier. He saw her sitting outside the delivery room and joined her. There was a moment of silence before…
“How long had she been… in there?” Yoochun asked.
“… nearly 6 hours…”
“Damn!” Yoochun punched the wall beside him. His knuckles became swollen, but he didn’t care. “Why didn’t you call me earlier??!”
“You were the one who neglected her!! And now you want to be a part of her life??! So sorry, mister! I don’t think I will allow you to do that!! Besides, it was her, calling out for you. If it was me, there’s no way would I ever call you in my free will, be it a thousand years from now on. What you did was unforgivable!”
“Me?? It was you who took her away from me!! I never said that I didn’t want her. I was just objecting to the idea to bring this to court!”
“That’s the same as neglecting her! Why did you disobey the deal?? And did you plead so that she won’t be taken away?? No!!!”
Yoochun was taken aback. Eun Ah was right. He didn’t. He cooled down a bit.
“I… I…”
“Enough. What’s done is done. She called for you. She said that she had something for you and asked you to wait for her. So… we’ll just have to wait after this operation…”
Another hour passed, but the operation still hadn’t ended. Suddenly, a nurse came out and she was chased by Yoochun and Eun Ah who hungered for an explanation. Any explanation.
“Don’t worry. We’re trying our best. In the mean time, please remain calm. You can wait for her in her room, as we will be bringing her straight there after the surgery. Please, excuse me.” The nurse excused herself. Both Eun Ah and Yoochun walked weakly to Ae Rin’s private ward.
The room was empty. Eun Ah sat on the nearby chair while Yoochun went to the bed. Sitting on it, he looked around. His eyes caught a glimpse of a corner of a folded paper that was hastily put inside the bedside drawer. He reached out and read.
Dear Yoochun,
I’m fine. The baby’s fine too. He’s been kicking hard lately. He must’ve wanted to see the world badly. No… he wanted to see you… I know, because I’ve been telling him so much about you. Every day, every night… He knows a lot about you… He wanted to meet his great papa…
How are you now? I saw you the other day, in television… You looked horrible. Did you take your meals? Your exercises? Your sleep??? You must take care of yourself. If not, how can Jae Ha see you later? He won’t recognize you as his hero anymore if you continue to go on like this. Maybe he’ll be picky like me?? Hihi…
The most important thing that I want to say is that… I won’t blame you anymore. I… I think that our mistake… No, it wasn’t a mistake… It was… a blessing… I’m glad that it happened. The baby in my womb taught me that I must not be blinded by my selfishness, by my ego… He taught that there was something present inside me, which longed for you… No, not just the baby, but my heart… I think I have fallen for you… I’ve been missing you…
The letter stopped there. There were stains of tears on the half-crunched paper. Before Ae Rin could finish writing it, she had already been in labour pain. She immediately hid the paper inside the drawer before Eun Ah and the doctor came rushing into the room. And now, the paper was in Yoochun’s trembling hands.
Please, God… Save my wife and our baby…
**********
The weather was nice with a soft wind blew the grass to and fro. The grave yard was empty, except for the two figures that was standing silently in front of a tablet. A bouquet of roses lay on the ground in front of it. The man started the conversation.
“It’s a pity I didn’t get to see her, even for the last time…”
The woman squatted, and put another bouquet of roses beside the one that was already there.
“Yes… She must’ve wanted to see you badly…”
Suddenly, a little boy came running towards them.
“Jae Ha! Don’t run in here. Have respect for the dead.”
“Yes, papa.” The obedient child answered. Then, his father reached for him and put him on his shoulders.
“Do you know who she is?” Yoochun asked, pointing to the name that was engraved to the tablet. The little boy shook his head.
The woman smiled and pinched the boy’s cheeks.
“You know her, mama?”
Yoochun looked at the woman beside him. They exchanged smiles before she answered.
“That’s your grandmother, Jae Ha. My mother. She passed away even before I knew you father.”
“Oh…” The boy understood. The three of them stood there silently for another five minutes.
“Come on. Let’s go home.”
“Yes, dear.” Ae Rin answered, and took a last glance towards her mother’s grave.
I’ve found my soul mate, mother. My happiness is with them, my family. Rest in peace, mother… Till we meet again, in another life…
They walked away from the grave, with soft winds followed behind them, as if Ae Rin’s mother was giving her blessings towards the happy family…
This is still not the perfect end, it is the perfect beginning….
ENTRY 3
LOVE IS NEVER GONE
Every night after the hectic schedule he stood in the balcony and stared to the sky. Looking at millions of twinkling little stars and smoking his favorite cigarette, he sat behind piano and composed songs that captivated everyone’s heart. It was the best way to release his stress and tiredness. It also gave him courage and energy to live on. For other people every star looked the same, but for Micky each star gave him different impression and feeling.
“Tonight the sky looks exactly like a concert stadium. Those shiny stars look like a red stick, which Cassiopeia, our fans, hold during our concerts and brighten the dark stadium.”
He uttered happily as he smiled to the sky, hand moving closer and farther to lips, blowing a smoke.
Holding concert, singing a song for the people who support them and meeting their fans gave them happiness with no words to describe. Suddenly he heard a melody from nowhere, which exactly told how he felt for his fans, how thankful he was and how he loved his Cassiopeia. It was like an angel named Cassiopeia came to him and sang a song softly to his ear. He started to scribble the beautiful melody; however it was a time to go to bed. He was too afraid that if he slept he’d forget the melody and never would be able to remember it again.
Suddenly he was interrupted by the door bell.
“Who’s visiting this late?” he asked himself and looked at his watch. It was 4 am. He hadn’t realized that he had been working on the song for 5 hours. As he stretched his body, he slowly walked to the door,
trying to guess who might be standing behind the door. He opened it and saw a girl, hugging her leg,
and crying.
“Yuri? What happened? Why are you crying?” he asked. But she was still crying and didn’t answer.
Without asking any other questions he helped the girl to stand up and go into his house. Pain and pity were visible in his eyes. The girl was drunk again. Whenever Yuri was drunk she came to her ex boyfriend’s house, Micky’s house, however she had another boyfriend. But Micky was never angry at her for coming late and disturbing him.
He slowly placed her on bed “Wait here, I make you a tea”. She just nodded her head and silently watched as he walked to the kitchen. Just after a few minutes Micky came to the bedroom holding 2 cups of tea. He saw Yuri sleeping on his bed peacefully; he put the cups on the table. He covered her body with a sheet and sat next to her. “What happened again?” he slowly uttered as he caressed her face. Her skin was so soft and flawless like a silk and shone like a crystal.
“Whenever I see you crying, I feel so sad. Please don’t cry again” he wiped away the drop of tears from her face, and then he stood up to go to the balcony to continue his song.
Suddenly he felt a warm body embracing him tightly from his back. “You fought with Jae won again?” he asked as if he knew everything. “You talk like you read my mind”
She answered smiling and still hugging him.
“Of course, I read your mind. We’ve known each other for 7 years now” he joked to cheer her up.
The silence remained between them as they recalled all the good and bad memory they shared
together… The dates with full of surprises… The childish fights over small things… The obstacles they faced together… They could remember it as if it was just yesterday.
“7 years. Time flies so fast. I remember our first date like it was yesterday. But 7 years has already passed,” She said releasing him from her embrace. And Micky faced her. “But I still can’t understand why we’re not together now.” She asked.
Micky was stunned with her question and didn’t know how to answer. He was shocked because he never expected her to ask it.
“Why did you fight with Jaewon? I thought he was a nice guy,” he wanted to change the topic.
She came over his house many times before, but she never told him that she wanted him back, she just asked him to comfort her. Sometimes when she came to his house drunk she would act like crazy crying, screaming, singing. But Micky would just calm her down and take care of her. When she woke up the next morning she would find breakfast next to her made by Micky and her clothes cleaned and folded
carefully.
“I thought I liked him. But now I understand I liked him only because he resembles you. As time
passes I started to compare him with you. Whenever I’m with him, I wish it was you instead of him. I thought I was slowly forgetting about you. But I was wrong,” she said lowering her head down.
“I think you should rest now. You’re still so drunk.” He said stumbling like a little child.
“I know I’m drunk. And I know I can’t tell it when I’m not drunk. Let me tell all the things that I’ve been holding in my heart for 3 years.” She continued. “Oppa, I still love you. And I know you love me too. Why can’t we start again? Let’s just ignore what people say about us. I feel like if I won’t tell
you now, I will regret it for the rest of my life.” The tears started form in her beautiful eyes.
“Sorry if I made you misunderstand, but I don’t love you anymore. All the things are left in the
past. And you also have Jaewon. It is wrong of you to talk like this when you have a boyfriend to take care of. Oppa is disappointed that you’re not faithful to your boyfriend. And sleep now. If you
come to my house and talk like this I feel uncomfortable. Don’t come over again if you’re going to say it.” He said harshly.
He didn’t want to tell these words to her but he knew if he continued to listen to Yuri, he’d change his mind immediately and follow his heart, which always called for Yuri’s name. Micky had hard time to control his heart, to make him believe that he had already moved on. Whenever she came to
his house and talked about her boyfriends and their relationship problems, he felt so lost and hurt. But he didn’t want to show it to Yuri and pretended like he wasn’t feeling anything. However in reality it drove him crazy just thinking about some other men touching her, hugging her, kissing her and making love to her.
Somehow she wasn’t hurt with the harsh words of Micky, because she knew he didn’t mean that.
“I know you’re lying.You never stopped loving me. I can see it in your eyes. The way you stare at me… it’s different from the way you stare at other people. With full of love and concern… it has never changed… since the very first day that we met” She said as the tears slid down her face.
Micky couldn’t protest again because deep in his heart he also wanted her back in his arms, he wanted her to be beside him. The tears started to form in his eyes too. He didn’t know what to say and kept silence. He just stayed like a motionless toy.
“Just to be with you, I can leave all things that I have now: money, expensive cars, Jae won and even
my parents. Just to be with you. You’re the only one that I need. And it was like this from the very beginning.”
After Yuri confessed all her feelings they both kept quite. Just their breath could be heard and their tears, sliding down their face could be seen. As they saw each other crying, they felt how much they missed each other, how hard it was to be apart, and how hurt they were living separated from each other.
Before Micky could do something she came closer to him and started to touch his face.
“This beautiful eye, this beautiful lip, this lovely cheek… how I wanted to touch it... how I wanted
to own it… The god only knows it.” She wrapped her arms around his neck and placed her lips on Micky’s lips and slowly, softly started to kiss it. But Micky didn’t return her kiss and stayed without any movement.
But he felt like he was in a heaven with a beautiful angel holding and kissing him.
Suddenly the fear started to fill in Yuri’s mind. She was brave when she confessed her feelings towards him, but now she was scared… scared of being rejected. She just couldn’t believe that his eyes
lied to her. The tears started to form in her eyes again. Then she stopped kissing him and took her hands off of him.
“I… I… I’m sorry. I think I’ve made a mistake,” she said quickly and rushed to the door. Her tears never stopped coming form her beautiful eyes.
Suddenly she felt a strong arm wrapping around her waist, pulled her closer and embraced her from
behind.
“I’m sorry for everything… for being coward… for throwing the true love that happens once in a life time… for hurting you.” as he said with full of emotion, he lowered his head down. Yuri felt something
wet flowing down on her neck. It was Micky’s tears.
“I love you, I still love you, I never stopped loving you. I know even if I die I will still love you.” Hearing those amazing words Yuri’s eyes again filled with tears... with tears of joy and happiness.
“Let’s start it again. This time I won’t be coward as before. I will do everything to make our parents approve us. Even it’s all people in the world against over love I won’t give up on you. I promise you.”
Suddenly Micky broke his embrace as he remembered about something. He approached to the desk and started to search for something and messed up everything that was on desk. Yuri didn’t know what to say and just stared at him. Finally Micky found what he was looking for. It was a little heart shaped box. He kneeled down and stretched his hand to her as he openedthe box. It was a ring with diamond on the top. “Will you marry me?” he asked.
“What?” Yuri was so shocked to see the ring.
“Actually I bought it 3 years ago to ask you to marry me. But I didn’t have enough courage to do it! So I kept it even not knowing if I will ever be able to give it to you. Now I know it’s the best moment to give it
to you.” He said as he studying every emotion on her face.
“I want to wake up every morning next to you. I want to protect you every day. I want you to be mine. Please be mine!” he asked gently again.
“Yes I will. I will marry you! You, stupid Park Yoochun!”
ENTRY 4
My Very First Of The Week
Hello, my name is So-Young and this is my story this all just happened in one week…..
- Day 1-
This week started like a normal week. I picked up my stuff, putted on my school uniform and got to school. There was my best friend Yoora. We are best friend since we could walk. And that is a long time. She smiled to me when she saw me. We walked along some boys.
“Hi” said one of them to us. We repeated “hi” back to them.
“Oh Yunho he is so handsome” She said to me, when we walked away from them.
“How long do you love him now, you should make a move to him and not just stand there day dreaming of how it can be” I said to her.
“But, but, what if he don’t like me” She said with a scary look on her face
“You never know if you don’t try” I said while we walked into the class. Yea that was my friend. In love with Yunho. Me? I am not in love or not right now. But I know I will find the one someday, like my parents did. I never could have known this week would change that all…
The end of the school day came. My friend walked to me.
“Please could you read my letter…I want to give it to Yunho” I laughed to her when I read the letter.
“It is good, give it to him” I said and she walked away to Yunho. Not much later he hugged her. I felt so happy for her. I walked to her with a big smile on my face.
“Lucky Yunho, he is the one who got a letter” I looked to the boy who said that. His name was Jaejoong, Next to him was Changmin. On his other side of Jaejoong stands Yoochun and Junsu. I don’t know how long the have been friends. But since I got to this school with my best friend, we always saw them together.
“Well, are we going home or do we stay here some longer”
“Let’s go” Yoora said, Yunho placed a arm around her and the walked out of the school building.
“Don’t you want to have a boyfriend now” Junsu asked her suddenly while I looked to my happy friend.
“Me, No…I am not in love, I am just really happy for her since she had so long a crush on him and everyday I needed to hear story’s from her about him” The boys started to laugh.
“What’s so funny” asked Yunho while he turned around.
“Noting, noting now let’s go home”
“No, don’t go, please I need to know more about it. Please don’t leave me alone” I screamed while I stood in a dark room the only light was from a little girl.
“Wait for me” suddenly she disappeared.
“Don’t go!!”
I woke up, cold sweat was rolling from my body. That was the most weirdest dream ever. But it looked so real. No it was just a stupid dream. I got back to sleep.
- Day 2-
The next day on school I told directly to my best friend about my dream.
“So, do you think this is a messenge or something like that”
“I don’t know” I repeated to her. “all I know is that I have to watch out” We walked back to the boys. Yunho directly hugged her while I just stood there.
“Need a hug to” It was Junsu who said that to me.
“No, I just need some sleep. Had a really bad night” I repeated to him. Suddenly we all saw a little kid running to us. My eyes became bigger as I realised that she was the kid I dreamt about. Suddenly she hugged my leg and screamed
“Umma!!”
I kneeled down to say “I am not your umma, you must mistake me with somebody” But like she didn’t listen to me she ran to Changmin and hugged him also
“Appa!!” Changmin looked to me and then to the little kid.
“Me, being a appa, what is going on I can not be your appa” I suddenly realised my dream that I was screaming from a answer. I needed to know more about something, but what that was I can’t remember.
Yunho and Yoora walked away to across the street. When the where on the half of the road a car with full speed came up to them.
“Aaah!!!” Suddenly the both of them lied on the ground. Blood was everywhere. I ran to them and saw the where dead. I couldn’t believe what I saw when suddenly…
“Hello….” Yoora was waving with her hand for my face.
“Finally back to earth” I looked down me and saw the little kid still with us.
“Well Yunho and I are going to get a ice cream. If you guys want to join. I saw them walked away to across the street. I got the feeling the same thing was about to happened of what I just saw.
“Stop!” Yunho and Yoora looked at me like I had something weird on my face.
“Why don’t we going to get ice creams at my house” Yoora and Yunho walked back to me. Suddenly a car with a full speed came here.
“He slow that car down a bit before people get hurt” Jaejoong shouted to that car. I only could have think what would happened if I didn’t stop them from a crossing the street.
“He where is that little kid” I looked down me and notice she was gone.
“Hey…So Young, What would that kid have mean while she called you umma and me appa, you won’t think that, we” Changmin said
“No, no I don’t think so” I Said while we walked fader to my house.
“So Young why you run away, when you told me you where pregnant, am I the father” Changmin turned me around. We stood in our empty street while it was raining hard. The both of us were soaked wet and I was crying.
“Tell me now!” Changmin said angry.
“Yes Changmin, you are the father of the child. Happy now, but you cheated on me with that lady. I never want to see you again! I can raise this child by myself” I said while I try to ran away but I felt and landed on my knees, Changmin ran fast to me and both of us where sitting on our knees in the rain. He held my hands and kissed them.
“If I am the father, then I want to take care for it to” I cried even louder. Then he kissed me….
I woke up. The dream I had last night was so weird. But it was clearer, but why would I dream about Changmin.
-day 3-
The next day on school I couldn’t stop looking at Changmin. Why did I do that? I am not in love with him, but that dream of yesterday. What did it mean, was it the future. Would I get a child with Changmin. Suddenly I notice somebody was waving her hand for me.
“Yoora, Sorry I was in mind. Wait is the class over now” I stood fast up and walked fast away.
“Are you in love So Young” She asked to me.
“What, why would you think that” I still haven’t forgot that I saved her life maybe. I was still in shock why I saw it. And that kid. What would she mean to me.
“You looked the whole time to Changmin, so I thought maybe you are in love with him” I looked to her and putted on a smile.
“No, it was just a dream I saw. It was so weird, I dreamed about him”
“You love him. Otherwise you won’t dream about him” I looked to her when we reached the boys.
“But you have to tell him by yourself” She walked fast away with Yunho
“He! I am not in love with him!” I screamed then I realised the 4 of them looked to me and I blushed.
“In love with who then” Said junsu while he looked to my red face.
“Nobody…r-really” why was this so hard for me to tell.
“Oh I have forgot to thank you for the ice-cream yesterday” Said Changmin suddenly.
“Oh that was noting, really. Well I go now, bye” I walked fast of. When I came outside I saw my best friend and Yunho. I looked fast away when I saw the where kissing so I walked fast home.
“He! He! Wait a second” It was Changmin. I stood still and waited for him.
“Eeuh…I wanted to talk to you about something” He said fast.
“What?” I was a bit shocked but I let him speak out.
“I dreamed weird about us yesterday. You where pregnant and I was the father and you where angry at me because I cheated and….”
“And then later we kissed each other right” Changmin looked me with big eyes on.
“Yea, but how do you know that?” I sited down at a bench in the park, while Changmin sited next to me.
“Because, I had the same dream as you, What would this mean. That we dream our future all ready. I know I will end up with you then. You will cheat on me and then….”
“Ssst” Said Changmin to me when he saw I was about to cry. “I think that child we saw yesterday, was our child” He placed his arms around me and I started to cry.
“No not our child, please don’t kill her” I hugged a child while I was crying. The man stood there only smiling to me when suddenly a door got open and somebody said.
“Honey I am h-ho…” He stopped in the middle of his line when he saw the man with the gun.
“Changmin run away” The man fired his gun and----
“AAAhhh!!! Not again…” I couldn’t fall asleep anymore until my alarm got off and I got of my bed ready for school
- Day 4 -
“He panda, next time sleep more” Yoora sited next to me while she looked to me with a worried face.
“I am fine, I just need more sleep” I said
“Then you had to do that at night” She said to me, I didn’t want to talk about this anymore so I changed the subject.
“So how are Yunho kisses, yea I saw it outside”
“Ha-ha, good and Changmin’s”
“He! Who said I kissed him. He just walked with me to my house”
“I was just joking” the class started and we paid attention to the teacher even knowing it was hard for me because of my less sleep.
“Look at this we have found 2 panda’s today” Said Junsu when he saw me.
“Huh? How do you mean Junsu” Then I saw Changmin also very sleepy look on his face.
“So did you guys went to party all night long and didn’t invited us” He said teasing.
“No, I had a nightmare” I said to him
“Same for me” Changmin said while he yawned.
“That is probably a lame joke of you guys, but we will believe you” Junsu said while all the others started to laugh.
“That wasn’t funny” I said while I pouted my lips. Suddenly all of us and it was like only us could hear it, a song which was song by a little girl. We all run into a room where we saw that little girl from 3 days ago singing.
“My very first of the week,
Yea that was you.
You have been a friend.
My very first of the week” She stopped when she saw us looking. “Umma, Appa” She ran again to us and hugged us.
“What was that song about” I asked her.
“About Appa and Umma” When I heard her saying that I looked to Changmin.
“And where are your appa and umma then” Changmin kneeled down to the little girl.
“The are right in front of me, only younger” This sounded so weird in my ears. Suddenly somebody walked into the room.
“Why are you guys here” I looked down me but the little kid was gone.
That night i didn’t had a weird dream at all…I could sleep in peace
- day 5-
It was the next day for school. After all the classes I saw Changmin walking to me and my best friend.
“He, tonight my friend junsu is having a party. So you want to come” asked Changmin to me.
“Sure, I can use something to think about something else then about all those dreams of the past nights” I saw Changmin smiling to me and that made me happy.
At the party I putted on a nice dress and my friend looked over to find Yunho.
“Aaah he must be here all ready right”
“He is there…with the other boys” how later party came how more people showed up. Some of junsu friends brought over alcohol. Of course I didn’t wanted to drink of it but I didn’t notice there was a bottle felled into the punch I was been drinking from all night. I was not the only one also Changmin. When I wanted to go home, I was a bit drunk all ready, Yoora didn’t want to go yet because she was enjoying her time with Yunho.
“He, I can b-bring you home” Said Changmin to me. I didn’t notice he was a bit drunk to so he drove me home. When I stood in front of my house I wanted to thank Changmin. My face was really close to his, he came closer to me and kissed me.
“You can come with me into my house” of course I had no idea of what I was doing or why I said that. When we reached my room he started to kiss me even more. And we landed on the bed. What happened after it I can not remember but I think I can guess it. Because the next morning I was sleeping on Changmin, with hardly anything on.
“Changmin…Changmin…” I try to wake him up while I held the blanket in front of me.
“What…Happened…” When he saw me he was in shock.
“You, me…this is a bad joke right, right…”
“No Changmin, it is not” I started to cry a bit, Changmin pulled me into a hug.
I stayed that day in Changmin’s house. I didn’t want to go home so I called my parents I was at Yoora her place.
-day 6-
“So-Young” Changmin screamed. I ran fast to Junsu house to find out why we became drunk that night. We just drink some soda’s. When I ran the doorbell it was Jaejoong who opened the door.
“What is it?” he asked while he saw Changmin running behind me.
“Yesterday, both of us, where drunk while we only drink some soda’s”
“Not the one with whisky right” My eyes got big
“What!”
“Somebody let it fall in it but I came after it to late” told Junsu to me “I came after it after you guys all ready left”
I got inside the house suddenly I saw that little kid running inside.
“Last night I was made” She suddenly said which shocked Jaejoong and junsu.
“You guys….did…it?” Changmin nodded his head with a ‘yes’ Jaejoong sitted back.
“And now…” That little girl was still here. He looked at her and suddenly notice her eyes looked a lot like Changmin.
“So the are you parents” the little girl just kicked with her head without saying her name.
“But why are you here…?” I asked her
“Because, daddy got killed and mommy….she… she”
“What happened to me” I kneeled down to the child.
“You did me away, and because you where so depressed you didn’t focus on the road and got in a car accident which killed you” I was in shock but the child hasn’t finished her lines.
“First you lose you best friend, with her boyfriend and them him”
“What but Yoora and Yunho are..”
“Still alive because of you. But I don’t want to lose my parents” She suddenly hugged me, Changmin came closer to me.
“So you came here to safe our life’s” The little girl started to cry, Changmin came to her and hugged her
“Ssst…Appa is here” What happened then I don’t know. One moment I was in junsu house and the next moment I saw Changmin and me only older. Then the same thing happened as in my dream. I looked fast at the calendar and saw it was years later.
25 July 2014. Then I got back to Junsu house but I lay down on the sofa.
“I…I go home” I stood up and walked the house out.
- Day 7-
This was the last day. I was walking with Changmin around the park talking about what I have seen.
“So…on that day…we must be careful”
“Yes, so are you for it” He grabbed my hand, I felt a blush coming up. Why I don’t know but it just happened.
“We just go for it” He said to me. “Or do you have a better plan”
“No, I don’t have” I said while I looked with my head down. We still where walking. But where is that little girl now. Since yesterday I haven’t seen her. I thought while I was walking. All the time Changmin held my hand. He knew he was going to be a father. I looked to him and when he notice that he stopped walking. He got down and sited on the ground in the grass.
“Something wrong Changmin” I asked him.
“Maybe you better can start with saying Oppa to me” Suddenly the both of us heard a girl singing. It was the same song we heard before. ‘my very first of the week’ Changmin stood up and the both of us ran to it. Then we saw her sitting on a rock. Watching over everything. When she notice it she walked to us. The little girl grabbed both of my fingers, I picked her up on my shoulder. All together we walked away. She repeated, “My very first of the week” I looked to Changmin and smiled. We know she would be gone tomorrow but we would see her again 9 months later.
The End.
ENTRY 5
Song Of My Heart
She entered the empty room, closing the door behind her. She walked over to the piano that stood in the middle of the room, careful to not knock any of the chairs. She could see the thick layer of dust that covered the floors and the furniture in the forgotten room. Then, she remembered...
~Flashback~
"Did you hear that?" I asked my friend. "Did you hear that sound, Mi-cha?"
"What sound?" she asked, confused. Then, I heard the sound of the piano playing again.
"That sound!" I replied. She frowned, listening hard. Then, I could see her eyes widen when she heard the sound.
"Oh that..." she mumbled. "It is probably someone playing the sound over the speakers. People tend to do that sometimes."
"But-"
"You are new in this school. This is how things are sometimes. Anyway, I have to go. I will see you during lunch. Alright?" Then, she rushed off.
"But there are no speakers in this hall..." I murmured. Then, I shook my head and went off to find my next class.
After that, I was walking down the same hallway again. It was empty this time and I could hear the sound of my footsteps. Then, I heard the sound of the piano again. I frowned and walked towards the sound. I stopped outside a room and could hear the music coming from inside there.
I twisted the doorknob and peeped into the room. I could see that the room had only chairs and there was a couple of windows. In the middle of the room was a piano. I could see someone playing the piano. It looked like a guy. I have not seen him before but I could tell from his facial expression that he loved playing the piano.
I listened to his playing before he stopped. Then, I silently closed the door and ran off to my next class. Everyday after that, I would find time to stand outside the room to listen to the music. And I told no one about it.
~End Flashback~
She stood before the piano, running her hands on its black, smooth sides. She closed her eyes and thought of him, thinking that she could smell his unique scent fill the room. As it often had four years ago. Then, she stood beside the place where the pianist sat, the place she often stood when she came to hear him play when she became his friend...
~Flashback~
I woke up that day feeling tired and slightly dizzy. My mother had asked me to stay at home. But I refused. I had to go to school to hear him play. He was like my drug. During weekends, I missed his playing. And now was the end of the week. I had to hear him play so that I could endure the suffering I had to go through for the next couple of days.
I barely made it through the first class. The teachers and my friends asked me to go home. But I would not. I had to hear him play. I walked down the deserted hallway, my hand on the wall since I could feel the pounding of my blood in my head.
I sighed when I heard the music of the piano and walked over to the door. I opened it and peeped inside, closing my eyes as I heard the music play. The pounding in my head seemed to stop for awhile. Suddenly, it came back again. This time more ferocious. The next thing I knew was that I was falling into a roaring blackness.
******
I moaned and placed a hand on my head. I opened my eyes before closing them again. Then, I opened them again when I realised that I was not in my room. I sat up and looked about, wondering where I was. Then, I heard the door to the room open and saw the guy that played the piano walk into the room. He carried a small pail of water in his hands and the sleeves of his shirt were rolled up. I could see that he had long fingers, like those of a pianist.
"Oh, you are awake," he said, sitting down in the chair beside the bed. I could see that his eyes were almond shaped and his lips were curled into a smile that I knew could make any girl go weak.
"Yes..." I murmured, watching him.
"Are you feeling much better?"
"Yes... Where am I?"
"In my house. You have been sleeping for some time now."
"How long have I been sleeping?"
"About seven hours..."
"What?? I have to get home."
"Not yet."
"What? Why??"
"You have not fully recovered yet. Why don't you go back to sleep? I will send you in the morning."
"But, I-"
"Just go to sleep."
"Thank you."
"Your welcome. Now, go to sleep."
I did as he told me. The next morning, after breakfast, he sent me home. On the way home, we talked about each other. When I told him that I liked to hear him play, he laughed and told me that I need not do that. He was happy to have someone hear him play and would prefer if I stood in the room and listen to him play rather than stand outside the room.
When we reached my house, he helped me explain to my mother about what happened to me the previous day.After that, I always stood beside him to hear him play. There were times when he would wait until I arrived before he started playing.
It was only a few days later when I found more about him. He was the son of the chairman of the school and was two years older than me. But I thought that it was alright to be friends with him and continued the friendship. A few days after I found out, I found him waiting for me outside my classroom. As he grabbed my hand and dragged me to the room, I could feel and see the eyes of the other girls on my back. People along the corridoor gave me the stares as we passed them.
I did not know what was going on until the next day when someone poured ink all over my table and even left a roach in the desk. After school, I was dragged by a group of popular girls towards the field. There, they started beating me up, pulling my hair, telling me to leave him alone. I cried out in pain and tried to escape. But I could not. Then, they started pushing me around until I felt too dizzy that I fell, twisting my ankle.
As I sat on the ground, crying. From the corner of my eye, I could see one of them lift a long piece of wood in the air, bringing it down onto my head. I covered myself with my arms, anticipating the blow. But it did not come. I could hear gasps and I looked up. I could see him standing there, twisting the wood out of the girl's hand and throwing it away. Then, he carried me, bridal style, in his arms towards the nurses' office.
"Are you alright?" he asked.
"Do I look like I am?" I demanded. I covered my mouth, shocked at the tone I had used. I murmured, "I am sorry."
"It is alright," he said, smiling. "I have seen any people stop being friends with me because of this..." He looked sad all of a sudden.
"I won't stop being your friend," I said, covering my hand with his. He looked up at me and smiled. I could see his joy. Now, I understood why he never talked of his friends when we together. And I wanted to be his friend. To be there for him when he needed me. For some reason, my heart started beating slightly faster as I thought of that.
~End Flashback~
She sat on the piano seat and lifted up the lid, hre fingers brushing against the dusty keys. She could feel his hands on hers as he taught her how to play the piano before he left her. Her heart ached as she taught of that rainy afternoon many years ago...
~Flashback~
"Sorry!" I said walking into the room. "I had to help a teacher out today."
"Its alright," he said, smiling as I walked towards him. I placed my bag beside his and then stood beside him, waiting for him to play.
"Why don't you sit here?" he asked, moving a little to give me space to sit.
"Are you sure?" I asked him, slightly unsure. He laughed and stood up, grabbing my hand and then making me sit beside him.
"I want to teach you how to play," he murmured in my ear. I could feel his breath on my neck. I felt my cheeks become hot and I heard him laugh. "You look like a tomato!"
"How mean!" I shouted at him, hitting him with my hand.
"Haha!" he continued laughing. Soon, I was laughing with him as well. After awhile, we stopped and then I turned my attention to the piano.
I had never played an instrument before and had never touched one. Not to say I wasn't interested. It was just that my mother could not afford one. She raised me single-handedly after my father passed away. And I the money she earned was barely enough to get us through the month. So, I never pressured her into getting me a piano.
"Do you want to learn?" he asked me.
"Yes..." I murmured. Then, I hugged him, touched by what he was doing. "Thank you so much!"
"Your welcome," he said, hugging me back.
Then, he started playing a tune on the piano. I recognised it as the one that he had been playing for the past few days. He seemed to be working on it for sometime. I watched as his fingers danced lightly over the keys. Then, he stopped and looked at me.
"Try to copy what I did," he said. I tried but somehow I could not. After a few times of trying, he placed his hands on mine and then showed me how to play but guiding my hands. Soon, I knew how to play it as well. Then, we played the tune together, the sound of the piano and the pattering of the rain blending in with one another.
~End Flashback~
She looked at the keys and then pressed one of them. She listened as the sound died away. Then, she reached into her bag and pulled out the music sheet and placed it on the piano. She looked at the notes that had been scrawled on the page in his hand-writing for her. She placed it on the piano and the started playing the tune. It had been sometime since she played this song. Her eyes tear up as she remembered that day...
~Flashback~
"Hey!" I said, entering the room. Today was the third year of me being in school. The people that had first objected to me being friends with him now did not mind. We were often seen walking together, talking with each other like old friends. But in my heart, I knew I wanted to be more than that. But I was too shy to tell him my feelings and kept quiet about it.
"Hey..." he replied. I could hear the sadness in his voice and wondered what was wrong.
"Are you alright?" I asked, concerned. I never liked to see him sad. So, when I saw him looking like this, I felt sad as well and there was this ache in my heart.
"I am fine..." he said, smiling.
I could see how forced it was and felt my heart ache more. I wanted to ask him what was troubling him but I could see that he did not want to talk about it so I just let it be. We were silent for awhile. Then, I asked him, "Aren't you going to play today?"
"I was thinking of going out," he said. "Do you want to go with me?"
"Sure!" I replied. "Where do you want to go?"
"Somewhere... You will see once we get there." Then, he took my hand and lead me to his car. He opened the door for me and then shut it behind me before getting in.
I looked out of the window beside me, watching the passing scenery. I could hear the radio playing some sort of piano music. It sounded soothing enough and I was enjoying myself. Then, I thought about the tone of his voice back in the room. I wondered why he was behaving that way.
"We are here," he said, his voice breaking through my thoughts. I looked up and laughed when I saw where we were.
"You wanted to come here?" I laughed, watching families that were walking around the carnival.
"Why not?" he asked, innocently. "I wanna have fun, you know. It is not a crime to come here. Come on! Let's go play!"
******
"It's late," I told him. "Can't we go back yet?"
"A little while more," he answered, aiming a hoop at a bottle. I nodded and looked up at the sky. I could see that the sun was almost gone and knew that my mother would be worried sick about me. But my heart kept telling me that I should not go yet.
"Yes!" I turned and looked at him. I could see him jump with joy and saw the hoops. The old woman that was in charge of the stall asked him what gift he wanted to which he turned to me and asked what I wanted.
"Don't you want anything?" I asked him.
"No..." he replied. "I just wanted to see whether I could win in this game!"
"Are you sure?" I asked.
"Of course I am!" he answered. I looked at the soft toys that were in the stall and then pointed at a cute dog soft toy. The woman smiled and took it down, handing it to me.
"Are we going to go home yet?" I asked, walking beside him towards the car.
"Not yet," he laughed. "I want to treat you to dinner."
"But, my mom-"
"I told her that I will be with you the whole day. She was alright with it. Otherwise, do you think that I would even think of taking you out?"
"You won't?"
"Well... Maybe I would..." he mumbled. Then, he quickly added, "If I liked you of course!"
"Which you don't?"
"Of course I do! You are my friend..." Then, there was silence in the car. I felt like I wanted to tell him that I liked him more than that! That I wanted to be more than just a friend. But I knew that that would only jeopardize our friendship.
"Are you alright?" he asked. I looked at him and nodded, not trusting myself to speak. We continued the rest of the journey in silence.
"We are here," he said, pulling to a stop in front of the restaurant. I stared, not believing my eyes. This place was expensive. I grabbed his arm, stopping him.
"This place is expensive," I told him.
"So?" he asked, an eyebrow raised at what I told him. "Don't worry. I have enough money to pay for this."
"But-"
"Don't worry too much. I have this covered. Besides, we won't be doing this every night. It is just for tonight."
"I don't-"
"Its just today."
"Ok..."
******
After dinner, we decided to take a short walk in the park. I looked up and could see the Cassiopeia constellation. They were shining brighter than ever tonight. I sat on the grassy slope, staring at them. He sat down beside me.
"You like the stars?" he asked.
"Yes," I murmured. "My favourite constellation is Cassiopeia. Look! It shines brighter than ever tonight."
"That is my favourite constellationas well," he said, placing an arm around my shoulders. Instinctively, I placed my head on his shoulder. sighing with contentment. We watched the stars silently. Then, I saw a shooting star.
"Look!" I exclaimed. "A shooting star! Let's make a wish." I closed my eyes and made my wish. Then, I heard him laugh.
"You believe in such things?" he asked, looking amused.
"Duh!" I said. "Aren't you going to make one?"
"I don't believe in such things..."
"Why not?"
"I just don't."
"Oh! Come on! Just make a wish! It won't hurt!"
"Fine..." He closed his eyes. After some time, he opened them.
"What did you wish for?"
"Something..."
"Tell me!"
"Tell me yours. Then, I will tell you mine."
"I wished that the both of us could be friends forever."
"Why that? Are you scared that I will not talk to you in the future?"
"No... I am scared if you leave me. You won't leave me, right? You will always be beside me, right?"
He hesitated before answering. "I won't. I will always be beside you. I promise." I sighed and then closed my eyes, feeling tired all of a sudden. Soon, I was asleep.
******
I woke up the next day, still feeling slightly sleepy. I sat up and took a drink from the cup of water on the table beside my bed. Then, I noticed a rolled, ribbon-tied paper and a letter on the table. I took them and then unrolled the paper. I could see music notes and the title of the song, 'Song Of My Heart', written at the top of the paper in his hand-writing. I smiled and then placed it aside.
I opened the envelope and took out the letter. I could see his hand-writing there as well. I could also smell his scent on the paper. Then, I read the contents of the letter. My eyes widened and I jumped up from the bed, changing clothes. I ran down the stairs and saw my mother there preparing breakfast.
"Honey, do you want something to eat?" she asked.
"No," I said. "I need to get to the airport."
"Why, dear?" my mother asked, worried. She grabbed hold of my arm. "You are not thinking of going anywhere are you?"
"Mother, I need to go to the airport," I said, trying to pull away. Then, I noticed the look in her eyes as she looked at the letter in my hands and then at me. "You knew?? You knew about this, didn't you???"
"Honey, he asked me to keep quiet about this."
"You should have told me!" I shouted at her. "How long have you known??"
"For sometime already..."
"Why didn't you tell me???" She kept quiet. I sighed and then pulled my hand out of her grip. "I am going to see him. And no one can stop me! I have to find out the truth! I can't let him go like this!" I ran out of the house without another word.
******
I got out of the cab and ran into the airport. I looked for him. I ran about the place, pushing people out of my way. I had to find him. I could not lose him. Not yet. After awhile, I fell down and started crying. No! Why?? I thought. I could feel my heart ache. I knew that I had lost him.
I slowly got to my feet, ignoring the people that stared and then walked out of the airport. I took the public bus to the park. Once I was there, I sat down on the grassy slope where we both had sat the previous night. I opened the letter and read it again:
Hey! How was your sleep? I am sorry for doing this. And if I could, I would not have wanted to. But I have no choice. Before I tell you why, let me tell you about something that I've hidden in my heart for so long.
I love you. I loved you since the day I first met you. I had known that you stood at the door to hear me play on your first day at the school. But I did not have the courage to ask you to to stand beside me and watch me play until that day that you fainted.
You looked like an angel as you slept. There have been so many times when I felt like kissing you and telling you about my feelings. But I could not bring myself to put our friendship in danger in case you did not feel the same way about me. So, I kept quiet about my feelings. I only had the courage to write this as I watched you sleep last night.
The song that I left for you is the same one that I taught you three years ago. Only now, it is complete. This song is about you. Your gentleness. Your kindness. I have written it down in the form of this song.
I have something else to tell you. I have a life threatening cancer within me and I have to go overseas to see a doctor. I only discovered this a year ago. The doctors here can do no more to help me. My condition grows worst each day. I had not wanted to go. But when I thought of you, I knew I had to suffer a little if I am to see you again in this lifetime.
I am sorry that I can't fulfill the promise I made to you as we sat under the stars. I am sorry. I will come back and see you when I get back. That is if you want to see me. I will wait in room for you on this day in four years. I promise you that I will come home.
~End Flashback!~
Her fingers stopped playing the piano as the tears that she had been holding back fell down her face. She never received any news from him. She never knew whether he was cured. Or whether he was already gone. She missed him so much. One of her tears fell onto the keys. She covered her mouth as she started sobbing.
Then, she got up from her seat and was about to leave when she felt someone's arms embrace her from behind. She did not need to look to tell who it was. She could smell his scent in the room again and the feeling of being at peace washed over her.
"I am sorry, Eun-ae," he whispered into her ear. She could feel his breath on her neck. "I am so sorry." She turned in his arms and faced him. He still looked the same. She stood on tip toes and kissed him gently, closing her eyes. he kissed her back, holding her closer to him.
"I love you, Yoochun," she said, looking at him. "I still do." Then, they hugged each other.
ENTRY 6
My Ghost Girlfriend
**RINGS**
It was Junsu's first day at his new school.And he was totally excited…..He walked slowly looking at each corner of the school,looking amazed when he suddenly.....
**PANG**
"Ouch!!That Hurts", Junsu cried.
"Damn it!!CAN'T you see where am I going???URGHHH!!!!!", Jaejoong said angrily.
"I'm sorry,but your wrong also!!You were staring at that girl and didn't see me walking!!"
"Why you!!!ARGHHH!!!I'm done here! Sa..Yo..Na...Ra...!" , pouted Jae and walked away.
JS POV
He's damn scary..He sounded like a gay guy! Don't u think so? (giggled)
JJ POV
Such an ANNOYING boy!!Well,back to her...
Hyuk Rin looks unwell…Is she fine?
Jaejoong headed to his class and to his surprise, Junsu was sitting just right beside him!!
Teacher Han came in and introduced Junsu.Every girls in the class cheered loudly when Junsu did his cute dolphin face….Jae totally got annoyed.
Suddenly,Teacher Han announce about singing audition.All the pupils were excited.
Out of a Sudden~
"JUNG YUNHO!!!",teacher Han shouted
"Ye….ye….Yes?"
"Why are you crawling?You're late again!And where's Mr Fancy Yoochun?"
"Yoochun?His…his in the music room with….er…ermm……"
"GO AND CALL HIM NOW!!!"
YH POV
ERGhhhh!!!.....Why is she so grumpy?No wonder she don't have a boyfriend….No guys like her…..neither do I!
~Audition Day~
Every student gave their best shot on the audition and guess what? Junsu, Yoochun, Jaejoong, Yunho, Changmin was picked and they were called TVXQ...
Their New mission has begun!
Every day,after school,they will have to practice their dance and vocal with Teacher Han
~After 3 Weeks~
JJ POV
Gosh….there's tons of audience!OMG,she's here!!!!Is she here for me?..Hahahaha….I knew it…It must be because I'm cute….Heheheh……
"Oppa?"
"Ehmm"
"Can I tell you something?
"Yup!!"
"I….i….i……"
Before Hyuk Rin can say what she wanted to him,she fainted…..
"Hyuk Rin??Are you okay??Anyone HELP!!!Changmin!!call the AMBULANCE!!!!"
Changmin called the ambulance and Hyuk Rin was brought to the Hospital but Jae was not allowed to follow…He was so worried but he determine to win and confess his love to Hyuk Rin….
ANNOUNCEMENT TIME!!!
"THE WINNER IS TVXQ!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!CONGRATS!!"
Everyone clapped hands in enjoyment for TVXQ victory!
Jae quickly left the stage and rush to the Hospital.When he reached the hospital,
Somehow, he felt his heart beat faster.
He quickened his pace, wondering why he was feeling like that.
NNNOO00oo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!O0OO000oooo....
Jae's voice echoed in the Hospital.
~Flashback~
"I'm sorry to tell you,sir, that she can't survive and her sickness was in a critical state already." ,the doctor said,feeling uneasy.
"This can't be....Doctor,what disease was she having?Please tell me Doctor!",pleaded Jae for he had to know what is going on.
"She was suffering from Leukemia.I'm sorry ,sir,i need to go now because my patient is waiting.." said the doctor,and walked away.
~End of Flashback~
Yoochun and the others tried to calm him down... Since that day, Jae fell silent, not knowing what to say anymore for his unconfessed love was gone.
Hyuk Rin was sent to death world and settled down at there for a while.
After 6 months, Hyuk Rin was released by the death angel to complete her last wish.
She possessed Hee Nim which lives near Jae and start to seduce Jae. Jae felt in love with Hee Nim because her personality is exactly like Hyuk Rin. Angel of Death was mad due to Hyuk Rin's fault of using human body without permission and forced her to be put in jail.
After a couple of days, Jae saw Hee Nim acting so weird and Jae was so pissed off because Hee Nim did not know him .Instead,he tried picking up on her.
Unfortunately, Hyuk Rin saw this and ran away from the jail of death world…..
First, she went in Hee Nim's dream and begged for her permission to use her body by night time but Hee Nim did not agree.Hyuk Rin keep bugging her since that night and finally, Hee Nim gave up and pitied Hyuk Rin. So, Hee Nim's body is officialy Hyuk Rin's body by night.
The next night, Hyuk Rin went to see Jae and he was so happy because Hee Nim remembered him! But, Hyuk Rin told Jae about her soul and Hee Nim. At first he did not believe but when Hyuk Rin showed her soul, Jae smiled because his first sight of love was back for him. Hyuk Rin smiled fakely as she knew that Angel of Death would soon found out about her escaping from jail and wouldn't want Jae to be worried.
"DAMN IT!!She's gone~",cried the death angel.Angel of Death went to Hyuk Rin and forced her to go to hell but Jae wouldn't let go.
Jae begged to go with them but neither Hyuk rin let nor Angel of Death too….Jae couldn't lose his love again and he ran to the main road and the first thing he saw was a big truck heading fast towards him.
"PON!!!!PON!!!!!HON!!!!,the driver honk as much as he can.
Jae only smiled and stayed at where he was standing.
(truck sounded uncontrollable)
NOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!JJJAEEEEEEE!! ,shouted Hyuk Rin.
Red stains representing Jae's willingness to die for love spilt everywhere.Hyuk Rin stood beside Jae,crying. She looked at him. People had said that Jae was a special person. He was a perfect person to Hyuk Rin.She had believed in true love and loved him. Now, she regretted about it . She should have stop it since the first time they met. Then, none of this would happen.
And for the last time,
"Ca..can…I….go…with …her..now??Please!!..I lov…love her…and I …..can't….lose her….her….again…", said Jae, almost lifeless.
"Give his life back.You only need me!!TAKE ME!!", sobbed Hyuk Rin.
"NO!!Listen to me!!", said Jae."Bring Me Along!!Let us be together!!"
Angel of Death pitied them so much and was totally touched by their pureness of true love.Angel of Death changed Jae and Hyuk Rin's soul to be angels at Heaven and they were together till now…
~Flashback~
He went over to his seat and sat down on the side,waiting for her. He could smell her perfume when she walk through beside him. The sound of her clear laughter and soft gentle voice filled the classroom.
~End Of Flashback~
He remembered the first time he had met her...
And now,she was his forever eternity.
ENTRY 7
Come Back To Me…
Oh, God. Please, not again. Please let me be able to arrive on time this time…
“Yoochun, you forgot the present!”
“Oh! Thanks.”
I stormed out of the dressing room, clutching hard to the small wrapped package. People were congratulating each other for the success of the performances as I was rushing down the hall. I have no time to be mingled among this sea of reporters and representatives from whatever companies when the trust of my wife upon me is at stake. It’s enough that I’ve caused her broken-hearts.
I peeked at my watch hoping that the road will be less busy tonight. With haste, I stepped on the accelerator and released the hand-brakes. The car jolted hard but my mind was too full of my promise that I became unconscious upon things that are happening around me. This could be my last chance.
The bowtie was starting to choke me. I released one hand from the wheel and loosen the tie from my neck. My head started to spin. Perhaps this make-up’s scent wasn’t being too friendly. Do make-ups have scents? God, why is the car moving too slowly!
Yoochun, you need to calm down. Take a deep breath. You are not late. It had only been an hour over. In fact, this will be the earliest of the records you’ve ever made!
Damn it!!
“Suyeon-ah,” I called out as I threw the keys onto the coffee table. “I’m home…”
The house was too quiet. I looked upstairs in the hope to see her coming down to greet me as always. I walked over to the dining room instead only to be greeted by the already-cold dishes and worn-out candles. The wine was there but the ice bucket was now filled with plain water. Suyeon-ah, you’ve always knew that I might not turn up at all, but you still…
“Suyeon? Where are you?”
I threw my jacket on the floor and rushed upstairs. This doesn’t look so good. Please don’t do anything foolish, baby. I’m here now. I’ve kept my promise!
The bedroom door was closed shut. I stood before it and prepared myself for whatever I had to do. With a trembling heart, I turned the doorknob and pushed my way through.
It was dark. The only light visible came from the gap of the bathroom door which was closed shut. She couldn’t possibly be crying her heart out in there, could she? Please, no more tears because of me…
I knocked softly on the bathroom door. “Baby, are you in there?”
Nobody answered.
“Baby?” I tried again while turning the doorknob clockwise. It wasn’t locked. As the view became clearer, I was no longer worried. Instead, my heart-beat stopped, cold sweats appeared and my whole body trembled.
She laid herself inside the bathtub with my spare razor blade in one hand and a piece of paper in the other. Her eyes were tightly closed, her cheeks were wet and blood was continuously flowing from the cut on her wrist. I didn’t know what to do. It might’ve been hours, minutes or even seconds, but I knew it wasn’t fast enough when I grabbed her cold body in my hands and rushed her to the car downstairs.
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Two hours of staring at the doors were absolutely tiring. If only the people could learn to ignore and just let me worry about my wife alone, it would’ve been more bearable. But seeing how those people came to me with their pens, notebooks and cameras even when I was half to death worried about her, it made me loath myself. How could I’ve not noticed?
“Park-sshi?”
I raised my gaze and saw a man with white robes staring intensely at me. “Is- Is everything okay? H-How is she?”
The doctor looked at his feet and put his hands inside his pockets before letting out a sigh.
“Will she be okay?”
“Park-sshi, we’ve tried our best. When you brought her to us, she’s already in a critical condition.”
“What are you trying to say?”
He stared deep into my eyes before he continued. I was prepared to hear it. Even if it’s going to bring me sorrow for the rest of my life, I was ready.
Wait. I wasn’t…
“She… might have to go through some difficulties. She didn’t manage to cut off the main artery. However, we found out that she’s been taking this drug for quite some time. She took more than what was prescribed to her and it has caused her miscarriage and unconsciousness.”
“Excuse me. Did I hear you correctly? Did you say… miscarriage?”
“Yes.”
“No.”
“I’m truly sorry…”
“No! She couldn’t be! It’s impossible…”
It was awkward. The fact that will usually bring tears to one’s eyes has brought me otherwise. Suddenly, I was in rage, I was confused… She couldn’t be pregnant if I haven’t touched her in months.
“She’s in a temporary coma and her condition is currently stable. I need you to allocate somebody close to keep an eye on her for 24-hours every day in case of any emergencies if you’re unable to do it yourself. And please fill in this form and you can see her in a few minutes at room 507.”
Miscarriage? Is it for real? The medical tools wouldn’t lie, right?
“Park-sshi? Are you listening to me?”
It wouldn’t be possible. I was barely at home and when I am, it would be very late, she’s already asleep and I was too exhausted.
“Park-sshi!” he tapped my shoulders hard and examined my eyes closely. “You wife’s life might be in danger and I need your attention regarding her well-being while in the coma. Can you cooperate with us?”
“In a coma!?? God, are you crazy? Of course!!”
No matter how much I doubt her actions, I can never deny the heart that I had for her. She’s totally irreplaceable!
“Well then, will you be able to stay here until she regains consciousness? I need to have someone to consult in case of emergencies.”
“I’ll make sure there’s someone waiting for her here. I just need to see my wife.”
The doctor looked at me before nodding and made his way back to the emergency room. Then, I quickly made my way to level 5 where my wife was supposed to be transferred. I looked at my watch, it was nearly midnight.
“Yoochun-sshi?”
I turned my head and saw a young nurse holding a tray of small bottles smiling from across the hall. “Yes?”
“Oh my God, I couldn’t believe it’s true after all. I thought the news about you being married was just rumours to distance away your female fans!” She was practically fake-smiling from ear to ear.
“I’m sorry to disappoint you…”
“Anyways, I heard that your wife might not survive from the coma. The drug she took was WAY out of her league. Her body couldn’t take it. They think she won’t have a lot of time left to live.”
God, how dare her! “Excuse me. Did I ask you to explain anything to me?”
“I-I was just sharing the information I heard from the doctor.”
“Just keep your mind off of other people’s business!”
Steadily, I walked towards Room 507 mentioned by the doctor. Kim Suyeon. With trembling hands, I opened the door. Oh My…
God…
It wasn’t a normal reaction for me, but I can’t seem to take control of my own body. Wires and tubes were connected to unimaginable parts of her anatomy. Am I still sane? Is this really happening? Suyeon-ah, it was only a promise. You should’ve waited just a bit longer. I’ve made it in time. I really did…
*vibrate vibrate*
“Y-Yes?”
I was never good at hiding my emotions. Micky’s voice blew my cover.
“Hyung? Are you okay?”
“Changmin-ah. W-What’s up?”
“Hyung, I asked were you okay. Did you catch flu on your way back home? Your voice sounds weird.”
I made my way closer to the side of the bed. Tubes were coming out of her mouth; wires were all over her arms and chest… Slowly, I laid my hand on her abdomen.
“I’m fine…”
I knew, out of all the members, it would make me a fool to lie to Changmin. But I won’t talk about this now. I don’t need them inside this frame.
“Stop trying to hide it, hyung. What happened?”
“I won’t come to work tomorrow.”
“What?”
“And maybe the days after that too…”
“Wait, are you kidding me? It’s our Asia Concert Tour rehearsals! We NEED you here!!”
Her body was ice cold. I traced my palm to her arms and her neck. Everything was pale. Suyeon-ah, come back to me…
“I… I got to go.” I’m sorry, Changmin-ah. Everyone…
I sat on the chair and held her hand carefully. Her wrist was bandaged nicely. Recalling the sight of the bathroom, suddenly my heart shattered to pieces. How could an Anniversary Dinner ended like this?
Baby, how long have you kept your feelings away from me?
Wait… there was a paper in her hands.
It didn’t take me long to find it. The nurse had put it right on her bedside table. Small circles of blood were on the paper. But it was her beautiful calligraphy that caught my attention the most. I quickly wiped my tears away and took the paper inside my hands.
Dearest Yoochun,
Please forgive me. Despite the love that you claimed you had for me, it made me feel insecure. Your late night works and performances were stealing you away from me. It wasn’t hard to wait. However, it was strangely easy for me to lose hope.
I wasn’t asking for you to be there all the time. I was just hoping that you could fulfill a few simple promises. If I knew that it will soon break my heart, I wouldn’t have asked you to agree to it. But that was my only hope upon you. But you disappointed me… countless times.
I knew it was my own price to pay. I asked for it. Though, I shouldn’t have thought that I was strong enough to handle everything. I still needed you by my side.
I prepared a special dinner for you to keep my mind off of nonsense thoughts. I knew you’ll be off to other countries for your concert soon. I wanted to grab your attention once again. I thought it will make you reconsider to stay by my side longer. Though, I was asking too much. The food was already cold and the scented candles were already burned out. I feel depressed. I feel unwanted. I feel that I am not your first priority. Perhaps, I was in the way of your career…
Yoochun, I didn’t know what else to do. I just couldn’t take it. If you didn’t want me anymore, there’s completely no reason for me to wait. I might as well return to heaven, where things might be a lot more beautiful, more bearable. Even writing this long letter was to buy you some time, but you’re still not here. So, I think it is time that I leave. Just remember this; my feelings for you will never change. From the bottom of my heart, I will always be your number one fan.
Happy First Anniversary.
Kim Suyeon
“Silly girl… You’ve always been my first priority. You know that, right?” Baby, please. I need you back…
Laying my head on the side of the bead, I tried to rest my eyes. Instead, I was reminded of the doctor’s words. Is he serious? I might not know if Suyeon has been seeing a personal physician by herself but I’m sure that she would never take any medicine without my approval. Unless, she already had something planned… Or…
“Jaejoong-hyung, it’s Yoochun.”
“Yah!! What the hell do you think you’re doing? Do you have any idea how worried we’ve got!!? Where are you now!?”
“Hyung, calm down. I’m at the State Hospital. Suyeon is in a coma.”
“WHAT??!”
I had to pull the phone away from my ears. The typical Jaejoong, always freaked out on these news. “Hyung, listen. I need you to come over. I think somebody framed my wife…”
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*Outside Room 507*
“What do you mean?”
I looked at Jaejoong and Yunho in turns. It turns out that everyone doesn’t want their beauty sleep.
“If Suyeon didn’t intend to kill herself, then, who did??”
“Think about it,” I turned to Junsu. “The only person unrelated to the company but is the closest to us is her. If there’s anybody who wanted to hurt us, using her is the best option. But then again, only a few people knew about our marriage.”
“But killing her?”
I stared at Yunho as I tried hard to think.
“Hyung…” Changmin suddenly came in front of me. His expression was intense. “I think that person intended to hurt you.”
“Excuse me?”
“Look, you guys got married silently so it’s weird if we say her anti-fans or our fans were the ones doing this. But do you remember Soh Minyoung? It’s not impossible that he will do such things to see you crash emotionally before your whole career falls along with it.”
“So what you’re trying to say is that MY anti-fans did this to her?”
Changmin nodded slowly. “Suyeon is a strong person. If it’s about her broken hope or trust upon you, she’s much smarter than to result in death. I think they even forced her to write the letter before they forced her to cut her own wrist.”
“Then what about the drugs? Do you think she really took it?”
Yunho came to me with his hands on my shoulders. “You know your wife the best. You could answer that question better than us.”
“I-I think…”
“Park-sshi?”
All of us turned around to be greeted by the doctor’s wide smile.
“Doctor? Is there anything that I can help?”
“Owh, that’s okay. I just came to give your wife a few shots for tonight. All of you can resume with your previous discussion.”
“Wait!” Jaejoong ran in front of the doctor before he could move another step. “I’ve never heard any doctors giving a few shots in the middle of the night to a comatose patient like Suyeon. What is it for?”
The doctor stopped in his tracks. His head lowered and his face was surprisingly reddening.
“How dare you question how a doctor takes care of his patients? Move aside.”
“Owh… Is that how you treat the family of your patients?” Jaejoong firmly stood in front of the doctor. A sleek smile appeared at the corner of his lips.
“Tell me what’s your name, doc?” I asked, taking Jaejoong’s hint.
“People call me Dr Wai around here. What’s wrong with you people? It’s going to be late if I don’t give her this shot now. Move!”
“For your information, Dr Wai,” Jaejoong stressed on his name before taking the tray he’s holding away from him. “My fourth sister happens to study around this area of expertise. What you’re trying to do now is completely irrelevant. Explain it to us, if you please.”
“You are Soh Minyoung, aren’t you?” I revealed sternly.
The doctor’s eyes bulged but he quickly calmed himself. He took a breath and answered, “What if I am?”
“Why did you do it?”
“Do what?”
“Killing innocent people…”
“I beg your pardon?”
“This is the liquid form of the drug you showed to me earlier. You didn’t think my eyes would be so sharp so as to catch the name of the drug on the bottle, did you?”
The shorter man suddenly became agitated. He turned side-ways but was completely surrounded by the tall men.
“You always thought I was less smart than you are,” I continued. “But think again... I may have become a celebrity with less knowledge from the books, but trust me I have more capable brains than yours.”
Changmin smirked at my sentences as he focused at the doctor’s face.
“This drug will damage her brains wouldn’t it? First it will cause the comatose, then her heart will come to a halt and she will die.”
The others just looked as I was interrogating my old friend.
“Answer me!!!”
“Y-yes…”
“Since when did you give it to her?”
“Since…”
“SINCE WHEN???”
“Since she entered the emergency room!”
The doctor’s breathing was too fast to be called normal.
“Gosh, you are still the coward I knew from high school,” I chuckled.
The doctor looked into my eyes with hatred. “You are the reason why my girlfriend left me.”
“And you take that as the reason to murder my family?”
The look of defeat was clearly shown through the doctor’s expression. But his dignity still stood tall.
“Huhh… I thought it was something big. Tell me one more thing. Did she really suffer from a miscarriage?”
“No…”
“Then what?”
“She is still two months pregnant.”
“Don’t bluff!”
“I wanted you to pay by killing the baby, but losing both would’ve caused you much more pain.”
“Damn it. That’s enough. Someone call the police.”
“Hyung…” Changmin called softly but I choose to ignore them.
I hope it is still not too late to save her from the effects of the drugs. I need to hear it from her, whether it’s mine or that she’s having an affair with someone else. I hope she won’t keep anything away from me anymore.
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“Park Yoochun-sshi…”
I stood from where I sat and rushed towards the new doctor that is now in-charge of my wife. “Y-yes?”
He took off his medical glove and repositioned his spectacles. “We’ve managed to clean her blood from the poison of the drug. It’s lucky that we could save her within this 24 hours or else she might not live. And I have to say that your baby is a strong one. It’s barely affected! I have to thank and congratulate you for this.”
I couldn’t help myself from showing off my teeth. “So, will both of them be safe?”
“Very.” He answered with a smile.
As if being brought to heaven, I jumped onto the doctor and hugged him tight. He choked off surprise. “Oh, I’m sorry. But, THANK YOU!” I hugged him again. I didn’t need to know anything else. Having her by my side again is all that matters.
“Hyung, you need to stop hugging the poor doctor. It might give a wrong impression to other people…” Changmin sighed and rubbed his head.
“It’s okay.” The doctor patted my back once I released him. “By the way, she’s expected to rise and shine again in a few hours. I suggest that all five of you get some sleep while she’s still sleeping.”
“No, I’m going to wait until she opens her eyes.”
Jaejoong looked at me with disapproval.
“Yoochun-ah, I know you’re still worried. It’s okay if you don’t want to come to work tomorrow and get some rest. But at least, can you help us get rid of those hideous eye-bags? You’re ruining the group’s image!” Yunho laughed.
“Fine! I’ll do it once you guys leave this hospital.”
“Promise?”
“Promise!!”
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“I’m sorry…”
The soft caress upon my skin woke me. I remembered this gentle touch too well that my heart immediately jumped with joy. “Suyeon-ah!!” I left my seat to take her in my arms and kissed her like I never did before.
“I didn’t mean to hurt you, but they forced me to it. If not you—”
“Shhh… It’s okay. Everything’s fine now.” My finger upon her lips trembled lightly. Perhaps I was too happy. “We’ve taken care of him.”
She looked deep into my eyes as hers started to glitter. “I love you…” she whispered.
I smiled as I caressed her cheeks. “If you love me, then tell me; do you something important to tell me?”
She stared at me with surprised eyes. “How did you know?” Her voice still sounded exhausted but her expressions showed otherwise.
“Baby, this is a hospital, remember?” I chuckled. “Tell me, who’s the father?” I may sound playful, but the anxiety inside me was overwhelming.
“What do you mean who’s the father? Of course it’s you!” she giggled lightly despite her weak condition.
She made me pause. The smile left me slowly. “But… I don’t remember…”
“What’s wrong, baby? Aren’t you happy?” She looked insecure.
“No… I mean, YES!” How could I’ve possibly thought of spoiling this precious moment? “Of course, babe…” I planted a small peck on her forehead. The most important thing is that I love her…
She smiled widely. “I never thought this could happen despite the fact that we rarely spend time together lately.”
“Me too…”
“Though I need to tell you, being drunk is not a very good thing.”
Her short, soft confession managed to soothe my heart. I took her into my arms and held her tight. “Thank you, Suyeon-ah…”
ENTRY 8
JAJI – LITTLE SCREAMING LOAF
It was ordinary day for DBSK guys. They were reading, eating, composing, dancing – nothing special.
»Ringringringring! « the phone rang. Jaejoong picked up the phone and answer:
»Hello? «
»May I speak with Park Yoochun? «
»Yes, just a moment please. « 'Yo Micky! Someone wanna talk with you!'
'Coming.' say Micky. »Hello? This is Park Yoochun. May I help you? «
»Hello Mr. Park. I'm calling from Seoul’s maternity and I'm Doctor Otto. I’ve got terrible news for you. Did you know Miss Apro Himari? «
»Yes, I did… What happened with her? « Guys turned heads to Micky and give him a curious look, but Micky just shrug with shoulders.
“We have to tell you, that Miss Apro died. She was shot with gun. We couldn’t save her, but we save her baby. And…”
“Wait! Wait! Wait! A baby? What baby? She wasn’t pregnant with me… Maybe you’ve made a mistake. I can’t be a father.”
All of them were in shock. Micky couldn’t believe that Himari was pregnant with him. Others were like stones.
Yunho was the first who made a move.
“Micky, can you give him on the speaker?” ask Yunho.
“Mr. Park. Are you still here? Mr. Park?”
“Yes I am. Could you please tell me and others the whole story?” he was on the edge of crying, that’s why he had broken voice.
“Well, we received a call from the café house because some guy started to shot on people. When we arrived there we saw almost the real massacre. There were only a few survivors. The guy who held a gun shot himself in front of my eyes. But now about your wife…”
“Hmmm…She’s not my wife. She was a girlfriend.”
“Oh, sorry. She was shoot in the right chest area, that’s why she died around ten minutes after the attack. Because she was high pregnant I went to her immediately trying to save her and her baby. When she saw me, she grabbed my hand and begged me to save her baby. She knew that she’s dying, but because of that little angel inside her she did stayed alive just a few moments more. There was no time to transport her – every little move she could damaged more then she was – so prepared me and my assistant for a birth on the floor. I’ve done caesarean section and a give a baby to a nurse. With the last breath she told me that you are father of a little angel. Angel because she’s very pretty. No, she’s pure beauty. Miss Himari died at 11:32 pm. Angel was born at 11:29 pm on July 21st 2009.
And now I would like to ask you if you could come to the hospital just for identification of Miss Himari. And to see your daughter Mr. Park?”
“I have a daughter? A little girl? She’s mine? I have…” Yoochun was in shock, sadness and happiness. He didn’t realize yet that he’s a father.
Yunho that the main word and asked the doctor if Yoochun can do some kind of test to see if he’s the real father of a baby. Doctor confirmed and said that this is also another request for Mr. Park. Yunho answered instead of Yoochun and tell that he will be there with his brothers in one hour.
“Thank you. I’ll be waiting in front of the main doors. Good bye.”
After the ‘click’ sound Yoochun collapsed. He was crying and sobbed.
“I love her…I love her more then anything in the world. She was my music, my life…” He suddenly stand up and went to his room where the piano was. He composed and wrote song. It was beautiful – very sad. He really suffered but guys didn’t know how much…
After some time he came out of the room and guys hugged him tightly and then they left the apartment. They went with Yunho’s car, because limo would look to stellar and the paparazzi could be interested for it.
Doc. Otto was waiting near the door just like he said. They bowed. Doctor was leading them the room where Himari lied. They left Yoochun alone with her. When the closed the door they heard crying. Yunho turned to doctor and asked him where the little baby is.
“She’s in the ‘baby room’. But I have one favour. I’d like to keep her here for awhile. She was born two weeks earlier. I’d like to have her on the observation. She’ll be fine here. And after a week or two she can go home.
About blood test – the results will come tomorrow.
Angel is in the incubator right now.”
Then they heard screaming – Yoochun started to scream unintelligible phrases that are boiling out of him between crying.
Yunho, Changmin, Junsu and Jaejoong didn’t know what to do. They were in pain because of Yoochun too, but they were also a bit confused and scared. They realized that Micky lost a big part of him and that will take a while for him to get over it. They were very anxious for him but they couldn’t do anything to erase that pain.
Yoochun for the last time kissed Himari’s forehead and then left the room with broken heart and with a thought on his little girl.
“I want to see my baby.” he silently spoke. His eyes were red and swollen, but his voice was still.
Doctor led them to a ‘baby room’ where he pointed on a little sleeping loaf. Yoochun sat on the chair in front of the incubator. He just watched her.
She had lovely pink lips, cute eye-line and eyebrows, nice cheeks which were like two small peaches and very little hands and fingers. Yoochun put his hand into incubator and touched her. When she grabbed his finger with her soft little hand, he quickly raised his hand to prevent sobs.
He started to caress by heads full of small hairs, soft as down. He petted her soft cheeks like velvet. She woke up and she looked at him with eyes black as coal. She was the real beauty - like her mother. “She’s mine. I’m one hundred percent sure about that. You can check but its waste of time. She’s my little daughter. My Jaji.”
He smiled and looked back to her. He started to touch her little feet and murmur her name like a song.
Guys were stunned. Micky and Jaji were really beautiful together. Junsu was the first who broke the silent between them.
“Look at her. She’s like sunshine. I’m gonna teach her how to be cute as possible. It will be tough because she’s already lovely…” he’s been cut between the words because of strange looks from guys.
“Welcome in the family Jaji.” Micky was on the edge of crying even he tried to stop.
“You could take her home in a week or two. It’s because of her health.” explained doctor when he saw the question in his eyes.
“I’ll visit her every day.” has agreed Yoochun.
All of DBSK members were around Jaji. Then Max surprised everybody with his statement.
“We need a house.”
They looked each other. Max was right but where to buy a house?
“I saw some for sale in suburban area - worth it to go check it out. What do you think?” said Max again.
Micky pulled from a pocket cell phone and gave it to Yunho and said to call the manager. Manager was pissed off when he heard that Micky became father but after few minutes he calmed down and said that he’ll send a person who will show them that houses.
“I just remember that we’ll have to go to that parental school. You know what I mean?” Junsu suddenly asked. But Jaejoong relaxed him and said that the first class is tomorrow at 5 pm.
Nana and the boys went for the views of houses. When they find what they want, they quickly organized all the papers and moved in. furniture was already there - in an orderly and beautiful.
After three weeks Yoochun brought the little screaming thing home. The last two weeks he couldn’t see her because she was sick and nobody except the doctor and nurse.
Meanwhile, boys and Nana prepared everything for their new ‘roommate’. They separately went shopping and really overreacted with toys, diapers, clothes, baby bottles and pacifiers. Xiah bought cart which was pink and on it were flowers, butterflies, bees, sunshines…Nana bought rocking chair, Yunho and Jaejoong repainted the room with light green with pink and yellow stripes, Max bought playpen and Micky bought cradle.
The first thing Jaejoong did was to feed Jaji and he did it well.
Time to change the diaper. The mission has begun – Jaejoong, Changmin and Junsu mentally and physically prepaired for it. Changmin hold Jaji as far away from his smell area as possible while Jaejoong was cleaning her fanny. Xiah was madly running round in the house searching for the diapers, clean cotton sheets, baby powder, when he realized that they forgot to buy changing table. He had to prepair Jaejoong’s bed for the changing time.
“Wa~ you know – we can prepare ourselfs for our kids with this little thing. I’m a genius, right?” Jaejoong said full of anticipations. But Changmin was really shocked.
“I can’t even drive a car and you are saying I have to prepare myself for a kid! You are crazy…”
Meanwhile Micky and Yunho have very hard talk – they’ve discussion what will be when they’ll go on the tour, which will be in October. Micky wants her, but Yunho was worried if something happen to Jaji and Nana. Because they couldn’t decide what to do they went searching for others – the heard funny voices and laughter. They saw Changmin played with Jaji – he carried her around like aeroplane.
While Jaji was sleeping with Nana – they had nap-time; guys decided that she and Jaji will travel with them.
Two weeks later, DBSK had a press conference for the fans and Micky confessed them, that he has a daughter. They were shocked, but they faced with it. Micky asked them not to stalk them. Fans were totally excited about the news. On Cassiopeia and BigEast they opened new topic where could their mums or them put some advices about care of baby. Because of that DBSK had a concert for them, where they thanked fans for the support. At the beginning they hinted that they have a surprise for the fans. By the end of the concert, Micky asked them to be as quiet as possible, because he’s going to introduce them someone. Yunho brought Jaji and gave her to her daddy. He was surprised when he saw happiness of the fans.
Than Max said: “Let me introduce you our niece, Micky’s daughter Jaji.
Fans started to applaud quietly, not to scared Jaji.
In October they started preparing for the tour across Japan.
But suddenly Jaji got sick - she had a terrible flu. Micky had to decide between the tour and his little girl. But Nana insists that he must go. Jaji will be fine with her. He had to agree with her. They were gone for eight weeks and in each city were two concerts and a show. Micky called Nana every day how’s Jaji. Guys were a little annoyed by that- of course they loved Jaji too, but this was a bit too much.
But the last week Micky was missing. They had only one more concert till the end. Yoochun was home- happily hugged with Jaji. Nana was on the edge of crying- she was in love with Micky sins they met. No-one knew that- she hide her love, because she saw love between Himari and him. But somehow guys (except foe Micky) noticed her sympathy on him. She asked them not to tell Yoochun.
Yunho called Yoochun- he was really pissed of (others too, but not so much) - where he is and why he left them?! Yoochun told them that he won’t be able to come back on time. Yunho was yelling at him for a while. But than one of the video technicians told them that they can connect him with them and the fans by the internet camera.
When the concert began fans were a bit upset where Micky is. Then they saw him on the big display, where he played the piano. When he stopped, he explained:
“Hello! I’m at home, with my dear Jaji and I’m very, very sorry that I’m not with you. Please understand…” than he waved and the concert continued.
With Nana and Jaji, he was totally alone. He had an idea. He went shopping food for dinner and when he came home he send Nana and Jaji for a walk-for three hours!!! Nana was a little confused, but in a while they were laughing at something and than she left. When she left, Micky quickly called Jaejoong and then- with Jaejoong’s instructions-he started to cook dinner. It was quiet good- he just burned the soup and dessert- twice! But when Nana came home and smelled something delicious, she became very curios. She saw Micky as a chef of the cuisine- she was speechless. Nana gets Jaji ready for sleep and put her in the craft and went in the kitchen, where Micky was waiting.
“it’ s just a simple thanks dinner- you take care of and love Jaji like she’s yours. And I’m very happy to see that. Thank you, Nana. I really don’t know what I’d do without you. You saved me and my Jaji.” They were talking all nigh long. Maybe because of wine or just of their attractiveness, they kissed and if Jaji wasn’t crying they could started something that they might regret later. Nana went to checked her and when she felt his hands on her neck, she turned and said:
“Let’s stop here. We could feel horrible after that. Please. We would feel guilty and maybe I’d have to leave the family. Please, because of our….your baby…don’t do that…”
“She’s right….” thought Micky- he kissed her on the neck and stroked Jaji.
“You’re right. Good night. Sweet dreams.” Then he left the room.
Later in the night.
They couldn’t sleep. They were tossing and turning around… Nana went quietly in Yoochun’s bedroom.
“Still up?” she asked.
“Yes…Jump in!” he lifted the sheets and Nana rose up in bed towards him. They were face to face…
“Why did you and Himari break up? She never told me why.”
“When her family found out that she wants to marry me they send her to Bali. We never broke up. She only could write me a letter that I won’t heard of her anymore. That’s why I didn’t know that she’s pregnant. And now she’s dead…” He started to cry. Nana touched his face and Micky kissed her palm. He looked into her eyes and than she spoke.
“Let me love you. I can erase your pain which Himari’s dead caused. I’ll be there for you day by day. We can take baby steps for our love. I’m patient. No matter what. Can you accept my love?” her eyes were closed while she was talking.
“I don’t know. Right now I feel so empty. Let’s wait for some time and leave this talk beside. OK? We are a little drunk and we probably don’t thing the same- wine’s talking trough us. Let’s just sleep- what do you thing?” said Micky and when Nana turned on her flank, he grabbed her and pulled her to be right next to him- he didn’t remove his hand from her. In that pose they fall asleep.
When they woke up - he was lying on his back and Nana lied on his chests. They were embarrassed and quickly went in bathroom.
When guys came home and saw this formality between them, they decided to change that. Yunho and Max went to talk to Micky and talked to him, while Xiah and Hero talked with Nana. When they finished they took Jaji and went for a walk.
Micky: “Nana, look…. I’m trying to forget Himari and the past but it’s hard. I’m trying to move on - for Jaji. I feel strange feeling when I’m with you - it’s not love neither hateness - God no! - It’s like kindness, respect, sympathy and happiness mixed together. I…” but Nana stopped him.
“I know it’s hard. It’s hard for me too, you know? She was my best friend and my partner in projects. I think it’s best that we just let time to do – whatever it’ll do, it’ll be good for us - well I hope. What do you think?”
“Maybe that’s the best - yes your right.” Than they hugged.
When guys came back they saw everything was like before. Only “lovers” looked more in love than before. They blinked each other.
A year or two were around. Jaji was a little adventuress – she was already walking and she could say: appa, momma, ‘min (Changmin), Jun’ (Junsu), ‘uno (Yunho), jej’ (Jaejoong) and some other words. Micky and Nona were closer and closer.
One day Nona and Jaji were home alone. Jaji was very curiously child. Nana went in the kitchen for Jaji’s dinner. When she came back Jaji was gone. Nana looked everywhere, but she couldn’t find her. She was in panic. Dark thoughts crossed her mind- was she kidnapped, fell from the window, went out…? She called Yoochun, but he didn’t hear his phone. She started to walk up and down. After few minutes guys entered into house – they were laughing, but when they saw Nana crying they stopped. Nana jumped into Yoochun’s arms and mumble unrelated sentences – he started to relax her with his hand – he stroked her up and down on the back. She told them that Jaji’s missing. They quickly started to search her – even outside because it was getting darker. Appa and momma stayed where they were – hugged and in silent. Yoochun still stroked her and Nana was almost asleep in his arms while others were searching for Jaji. Max even looked in the toilet, Junsu and Yunho went out but they couldn’t find her. Jaejoong went to the balcony where he heard murmuring. He looked more carefully and saw Jaji sleeping behind the carpet (Nana washed it and dry it). He raised her into his laps and took her downstairs. Micky took her and gave her two little punchers across her fanny – he was very sorry about that when he saw her tears but what was done was done. Jaji hide her head in momma’s arm and ask if momma is angry.
“Honey, I’m just little angry – you made us scared. Don’t you do that again, ok?”
Jaji lift her head and said with smile:
“Momma kiss appa!”
Nana surprised opens her eyes, but Micky already kissed her on the check. Somehow Jaji wasn’t agree with that.
“No. Me kiss night night here (she pointed on her lips). Appa no?”
Translation: “Why you always kiss me on lips for good night, but you won’t appa?”
Nana blushed immediately before Micky kisses her passionately. Jaji cover her eyes but she still peaked.
Kiss was long and it showed how much they love each other. Guys disappear without any noise.
Yoochun looked into her eyes and said:
“Only now I really know what you mean to me. When you are not around I can hardly breath – I miss you so much. When you are here you give me your support and help. Your love is always around. There was no day that you wouldn’t expect me with a smile on your face and hands open for hug and comfort. When I need you, you’re there regardless what happened. Even when I stayed alone with Jaji you left your shiny carrier of saxophonist and came here to live with me…us. I wish that I could tell you what you are to me…”
Nana put her finger on his soft lips.
“Yoochun you don’t know what you mean to me!” when she spoke her eyes were closed and with tears on her check.
“Always when I looked into your eyes, even just for a second, it was like new world is around me and when u smiled, even a bit, was enough to make my day. I feel that you are made for me. If I said that I love You! are these words too small for the feelings I feel when I’m around you…So I…”
“Will you, Lee Nana, take me for your husband, who loves you more than the air he breathes?”
Nana was I shock, but without a second thought she said:
“Yes, I will! I will! Hahaha, you want to marry me! Yes! YES! I love!!”
She kissed him and between the kiss she felt the ring on her finger. Guys appeared from nowhere and start to laugh and scream.
The End
ENTRY 9
WASURENAIDE
“Beddo ni suwatte kimi no koto wo kangaeteita
Aenakute mo ii aitai kono kimochi dake de ii kara”
I really can’t forget the times when I would just stare at nothing… reminiscing all the times that we were together.
“Tsuyoku nokotteiru kioku kimi kara no mijikai messeeji ga
Setsunaku mune shimetsukeru kedo towa no shiawase boku ga mamoritsuzuketai”
How I miss you… Where are you? Do you even think of me, the same way I think about you?
“Fukaku kizutsuiteita koto kizukasezu waratteita kimi ni
Zutto taisetsu ni suru kara sakebitsuzukeru arifureta kotoba demo”
I know I have hurt you so many times… And yet you still tried to make everything all right. Despite all the pain I gave you, you still tried to hide everything with a smile. Even though you shed so many tears because of me, you still tried to give me unending love and support.
I’m sorry for always leaving you alone… for not being there when you need a shoulder to cry on… for letting you down … and for not giving you enough attention.
---- Flashback…
“I’m sorry I can’t see you right now. I know it’s our anniversary but our group still has a pictorial in an hour and an interview later in the evening. Maybe we can just postpone our celebration for today. Let’s just meet up again when I have the time okay?” I said heartlessly.
“Oh . . . okay. Have you eaten lunch yet? It’s already passed lunch time,” she said while trying to hide the disappointment in her voice.
“Are you all right?” I asked. “I’m really very sorry. Look, I have to hung up now. Our manager is calling. Take care of yourself okay? I’ll call you tomorrow,” I said hurriedly.
“Don’t worry. I understand. Just make sure you eat okay. I don’t want you to get sick or anything. We can just do our celebration some other time. Goodbye then,” she said while trying to hold back her tears.
“Kaze ni natte sotto tsutsumitai
Kimi ga iru sekai ni sugu tonde yukitai
Aitakute mo aitakute mo
Matteru kara matteru kara”
I know you tried to hold on but I just took it all for granted. Now … here I am regretting and wishing that I could turn back the time when you were still by my side…
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“So where’s Jae?” U-Know asked Max as he carefully placed the magazine he was reading on a table near him.
“He’s in his room, still busy writing a new song,” Max answered as he sat down beside Xiah who was also preoccupied with playing a game.
“It’s our day off today. And it’s his way of relaxing. So let’s just leave him alone,” Xiah uttered.
“But he hasn’t eaten yet. I am really starting to get worried about him,” Max said with a sigh.
Micky slowly looked at Max, and then shook his head. “You know, today was supposed to be their second year anniversary that’s why he’s like that,” he said as he turned off his laptop.
“Really? So that’s the reason why he’s been totally strange all week,” Xiah said as he finally stopped playing.
“I can’t believe he still can’t forget her,” Max said. “It’s been so long since she left . . . a year to be exact. So how come he hasn’t moved on?”
Micky smiled. “Max, it’s not easy to forget someone especially when you have loved that person with all of your heart.”
“And when you’ve actually thought that person would be the one you would be spending the rest of your life with,” U-Know added.
Max shook his head. “Now that is what’s making me so confused. If he’s so in love with her, then why did he neglect her in the first place?”
Xiah smiled bitterly. “Max, sometimes you will never know what is most important to you, not until you have already lost it. Somehow Jae thought that Erin would always be by his side… always ready to understand and forgive. He had totally forgotten that she has feelings too, and that she will always have a limit on how much she can take.”
Max sighed again. “I think hyung should try to move on by now. She might already be involved with someone else by now.”
“Give him his own pace to heal his wound. He will try to move on once he is ready,” Micky uttered.
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“Itsumo no hodou ni kimi no kage wo kanjiteita
Shizuka ni me wo toji inoru itsumademo kienai you ni”
Erin suddenly stopped and stared at the cd in front of her. She had mindlessly wandered into a store that sold cds and dvds. And as if an unknown force was teasing her, the store was playing a song …. A song that was bringing forth forgotten memories and pain…
She continued to look, then carefully picked up the cd and stared closely at a specific face in the picture.
“I’m happy that you haven’t forgotten to take good care of yourself. I miss you Jaejoong. Do you miss me too?” she asked as if talking to the man in the photo. She then traced the man’s face in the picture with her finger.
Only minutes passed… And as she carefully placed the cd in her bag, a sweet smile appeared on her lips.
An hour later… in a meeting room.
Erin felt like her entire world had collapsed the moment she laid her eyes on the men slowly approaching them. “Please no… not him,” her mind kept on repeating.
U-Know and Max worriedly looked at Jaejoong. Somehow they were all concerned about how he was going to react with Erin around.
But surprisingly Jaejoong and Erin were in complete control of their emotions. No one would even be able to guess that behind their cold façades, their hearts and minds were already being flooded with painful memories.
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Flashback….
“Why? Why? Just tell me one good reason why you want to break up with me,” Jaejoong asked with sadness in his voice and tears were already clouding his eyes.
Erin looked away. Somehow she wanted to act strong. She didn’t want to see Jaejoong’s tears because she knew she might suddenly change her mind once she saw him crying.
“You already know the answer Jae. Do you really need to ask me that?” Erin said softly.
Jaejoong looked at her, then he lowered his head. He knew she had a good reason to leave him. He had been neglecting her ever since their relationship started… She had been giving in to all his demands but he never even once gave her anything in return. He always broke his promises and he always made her wait. She was always the one who ended up preparing for all their special times together, and more than half of their plans were always cancelled or forgotten by him.
Jaejoong closed his eyes. “I’m sorry,” he slowly uttered. “I know I have done so many wrong things to you. But please don’t leave me. I love you,” he said with tears already running down his face.
Erin tried to control her own tears. “I’m sorry. But I have tried so hard to hold on to our love… but all my efforts aren’t enough. In order for our relationship to work, you also need to contribute some of your time and your effort… I can’t be the only one working for our relationship to last. I have been hurt so many times. I don’t even know how I survived all of it. I… I know you love me. But there are times I can’t feel it. There are times that I need you, and you’re not there. There are times that I feel so lost… but you can’t even spend a single minute to talk to me. Please understand… I am tired of everything. If I stay and continue this, I will just keep on hurting. So please let me go… Maybe we’re not really meant for each other. Maybe you don’t really love me and just think that you do…”
“Don’t you believe me? I love you Erin,” Jaejoong uttered with a quivering voice. He then tried to hold Erin’s hand, but she immediately moved away from him.
“Please don’t… Don’t make it harder for the two of us. Let’s just end this now while we still have something special between the two of us. I don’t want us to end as enemies. It’s better if we let go of each other now… while we are still friends. I also know I am only hindering you in your success. I want to give you back your freedom. So you can soar higher and reach all your dreams. Let’s just say goodbye now please,” Erin begged.
Jaejoong cried bitterly. He knew what she said made sense but his heart was wouldn’t agree. His heart was telling him not to let her go. He loved her but he knew there were a lot of things he couldn’t give….things that she needed and was also searching for.
Slowly he reached out for her again. This time Erin didn’t try to move away. She just allowed him to hold her in his arms. His embrace was so tight that somehow she felt like she couldn’t breathe.
As they both held on to their last embrace, tears were continuous flowing.
“I love you Erin,” he uttered as he slowly gave her their very last kiss…
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The meeting was finished after an hour. And as Erin hurriedly arranged all her things, Jaejoong slowly approached her.
“Can we talk?” he asked with a low voice.
She suddenly looked up at him. Immediately her heart started to beat wildly. How she had missed him…. Somehow just seeing him in front of her was making her filled with so much longing.
“Sorry, but I can’t. We’re leaving Japan in a few hours. I still need to do a lot of things before we leave,” she lied.
Jaejoong stared at her more closely. “Are you trying to avoid me? Can’t you spare even a few minutes?” he asked with pain in his voice.
Erin felt pity after hearing him say those words. But she just tried to act tough and continued to arrange her things. “Sorry, but I really can’t,” she lied again.
“Erin … please,” Jaejoong begged again.
“Don’t look at him. No matter what he says or do… Don’t look at him,” she kept on repeating in her mind. She was afraid that she would betray herself once she looked at his face.
Suddenly… Erin’s boss quickly took all the materials that she was gathering. “Go… talk with him. I know the two of you have a lot of things to settle,” he said to Erin.
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“Kimi ni fureta yoru kowareteshimau hodo ni
Tadayou kaori ni mata omoi ga tsunoru baby”
“I miss you,” Jaejoong immediately voiced out as soon as they were alone in the DBSK boys’ van.
Erin bravely faced him. “I’m sorry … but I don’t.”
Jaejoong tried to smile. “It’s been a year. I know a lot things must have changed. But please don’t tell me… you have already forgotten me,” he said with pain in his voice.
“What would you do if I said yes?” she asked sarcastically. She was trying to hide her nervousness and fear.
Jaejoong was instantly hurt. “Are you involved with someone else now? The man you were with today… is he the one?” he boldly asked.
Erin looked away. “You don’t have any right to ask me such questions.”
He then lowered his head. “I’m sorry.”
Erin closed her eyes for a few seconds. She was already feeling very weak. Her heart was already screaming his name. Somehow her body was already trembling. Somehow she wanted to go near him and just embrace him and kiss him…
“I’m glad that you’re all right. I was worried sick about you. After you left, I just kept on wondering where you were and what you were doing. Now I can finally put my mind at ease. I am happy that you have already moved on,” Jaejoong uttered with a heavy heart.
“Jae, we have different lives now. Let’s just leave everything behind. Now I can see that leaving you was the best thing I could do for you. Look at you now… You’re at the top. I am so happy for you. You have finally achieved what you have dreamed of. And I know you wouldn’t be able to achieve your goals if I had stayed and hindered your success,” Erin said softly.
“You were never a hindrance. You were my inspiration. What I achieved is all because of you. I worked so hard so I can stand before you one day and make you proud of me,” he uttered with tears already forming in his eyes.
Erin could no longer help but stare straight into his eyes. And her heart instantly broke after seeing the pain and sadness in those beautiful eyes that she had dreamed of for the passed one year. Her mind was already telling her to be true to herself and her heart was already reaching out to him.
Scared, Erin quickly got out of the van. “I’m sorry Jae. But I can’t stay long. I still need to fix my things, and we will be leaving in a few hours.”
Jaejoong slowly got out of the van as well. “Are you really leaving?”
“Yes,” she simply replied.
“I . . . I want you to stay… Can’t I make you stay?” Jaejoong asked with a trembling voice.
Erin looked back at him. “No. Tell me… what can you give me if I stayed?” she asked with a cold voice.
Jaejoong tried to hold back his tears. “Nothing … I guess… just my love,” he replied.
“Can you give me some of your time? Can you promise me that you will never neglect me again? Can you promise me that you will never make me wait again? Can you promise that you will never make me cry again?” she asked continuously.
Jaejoong felt there was something stuck in his throat that was making it hard for him to answer. He knew he couldn’t promise anything. He can never promise her anything. His life was too complicated that there was really no room for her. His heart longed for her, but he knew he had no right to keep her.
“No,’ he answered as his tears finally fell. He felt like the world was too cruel to him. He kept on asking himself why he couldn’t keep Erin by his side. She meant the world to him. But fate was somehow against them. Even though he loved her, he still wasn’t allowed to have her.
Erin looked away. “Then I guess… this is goodbye again,” she uttered. “I know there will come a time that you will find someone who will be able to stay by your side. I am sorry that I can’t be that someone. I will always pray for your success and happiness. Take care of yourself, Jae…”
As Erin started to move away, she finally allowed her tears to fall. She still loved him, but she didn’t want another continuation of their suffering. They were destined to be apart and it was something she needed to accept. “I love you, Jaejoong…” her heart kept on reaching out to him.
Jaejoong continued to stare as Erin slowly walked away from him. “How can I be happy when you’re the only one who can make me smile? Tell me…. How am I supposed to forget you Erin?” he kept asking in his mind as tears clouded his eyes.
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“Kimi ni fureta yoru kowareteshimau hodo ni
Tadayou kaori ni mata omoi ga tsunoru baby”
“Are you all right?” Erin’s boss asked her as they were already getting ready to board the plane.
Erin looked around as if looking for someone. Somehow her heart was still hoping and believing that he would come and make her stay one last time.
“Stupid,” she muttered to herself. She was angry with herself. Why was she hoping that Jaejoong would come and ask her to stay again when she had already rejected him. She wasn’t thinking straight when she was talking to him. She was in total denial. But the fact was that she still loved him.
She could have stayed if only he had said that he was willing to give her even a fraction of his time. She was willing to stay if he had lied and told her that he wasn’t going to make her cry again. She wasn’t asking much…. Just a little of his attention. She was willing to sacrifice…. to wait…. and to cry…. just as long as she was by his side.
“Stupid,” she uttered again. It was already too late. She made a wrong decision again.
They were already walking towards the boarding area, but she didn’t want to go. She wanted to stay where her heart was… with Jaejoong.
“Erin!” a man’s voice suddenly called out.
She quickly looked back. And her heart immediately started to rejoice.
“Jae,” she uttered as tears started to form in her eyes. “He came… he came for me,” the words kept on repeating in her mind.
Jaejoong hurriedly walked up to her. And as soon as he was near her, he quickly took her in his arms. “Please don’t go.”
“Jaejoong.”
“I don’t think I can stand another day without you. Please stay by my side. I promise I will try my best to make it up to you. I will always take care of you. I will always be there for you. And I will never hurt you and make you sad … ever again,” he uttered.
He then slowly made her look straight at him. “Please stay Erin. Even if I have to trade my career… I am willing to do it. Just say you’ll stay with me. I don’t want to spend the rest of my life regretting the day that I let you go. Please come back to me…” he uttered with sincerity and love in his eyes.
Erin didn’t know what to say. Tears were already streaming down her face. “You’re making me cry again,” she uttered.
Jaejoong quickly wiped her tears away. Then he worriedly looked at her. “I’m sorry if I made you cry.”
Erin smiled. “If this is the kind of feeling that would make me cry…. Then I am willing to cry everyday….”
Jaejoong touched Erin’s face. “Please say you will stay with me and never leave me again.”
She slowly nodded. “You should have done this a long time ago… the very first time I left. Do you know how much I missed you?” she asked with a smile.
“I love you Erin… I promise I will never let you go … ever again,” he said lovingly before lowering his face and kissing her. How he had longed to feel her soft lips next to his. He then tightened his hold on her body. She was finally back where she belonged …. She was finally back in his arms…
“Itsumademo hatenai you ni
Motto tsuyoku tsunaida te hanarenai you ni”
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“Sometimes you will never realize what is most important to you, not until you have lost it. So when you get the chance to have a hold on what is most important to you… make sure that you cherish it and take care of it… Never ever allow yourself to lose it… or else you will spend the rest of your life regretting… ”
Jaejoong slowly smiled as he gazed at the beautiful sunrise. He then tightened his hold on Erin’s hand, as they continued to walk along the shores of the beach. He had never felt so complete in his entire life. He was truly blessed for getting the chance to have her back in his life again.
As they continued to walk together, a sweet music kept on playing in their minds and in their hearts…. A music that will always play in their lives forever….
“Kaze ni natte sotto tsutsumitai
Kimi ga iru sekai ni sugu tonde yukitai
Aitakute mo aitakute mo
Matteru kara tada wasurenaide”
“Koko ni iru yo wasurenaide”
ENTRY 10
“HOT CHOCO”
“Jaejoong ah, Let’s break up… I love someone new..”
“No… Please.. don’t leave me.. I-I Love You!”
“I DON’T LOVE YOU ANYMORE! Now leave us alone!” Jaejoong’s now “ex” boyfriend turned his back and walks away with his new boyfriend, Leaving Jaejoong alone.
Too shocked by what happened, he just watched them walk away.
NOW THE RAIN STARTED TO POUR.
The sound of the raindrops filled the whole crowd-less park.
Jaejoong who was now on his knees joined the sky as it cries… like the heaven is also feeling sympathy of him.
Reminiscing those last few words his ex lover had said, he couldn’t help to grip his chest. It was so painful. So painful that he wished that he would just die at that moment.
After those 5 long years, he didn’t think or even thought of this kind of shit to happen or even end. Even the people around Jaejoong thought that they will get married soon and have a happy family.
But that seems not going to happen… because his ex-boyfriend, Choi Siwon, broke up with him.
After everything he’s done for him and this relationship, It is still not good enough or even meant nothing.
Jaejoong is now drenching wet, wet because of the fucking rain and those tears he shed. His tear-stricken face is now covered with his hair. He was a total mess.
He slowly tried to stand and walked, he didn’t even know where he was going. He just let his feet drag him anywhere.
After minutes of walking with no direction, he stands at a front of a familiar house, a house that is very familiar to him.
He needed someone to talk to, someone to comfort him, that’s the thing he thought after his feet brought him here.
He opened the unlocked gate and knocked on the door but no one was answering. He desperately knocked again but the he was stopped by a sudden call.
“Yah, Jaejoong-ah? Is that you? What are you doing here? Its raining…”
He looked behind him and saw his bestfriend closing the gate behind him while holding an umbrella and a plastic bag.
“Yu.. Yu.. Yunho-ah…” Jaejoong began to stutter and feel weak, he was on the verge of tearing up again.
He approached Yunho and hugged him tightly, he started to cry again.
As Jaejoong cried, Yunho on the other side accidentally dropped the things he was holding and hugged Jaejoong back instead. He felt that he needs to comfort Jaejoong so hard. YunHo then asked Jae what happened.
“Si…Siwon ah... he broke up with me…” Jaejoong started. “I saw him with another guy… He… he cheated on me…”
YunHo all of a sudden wanted to run and rip Siwon into pieces. He wanted to beat that shit but Jae didn’t let him go, it’s not he can’t break free, but he wanted to comfort Jaejoong and never leave him so he just remained calm but his hands form into a hard fist, controlling himself.
“It’s okay Jaejoong-ah, just let all your frustrations flow, let all your pain, sadness and anger flow like the rain, release it in your body. I am always here for you.”
Jaejoong then looked at YunHo’s eyes and asked him. ‘Why do you care for me so much YunHo? I know you are my bestfriend, but do you thing its—“
Jaejoong was interrupted with a KISS.
Yes, YunHo kissed him.
Jaejoong was so damn shocked but then he is too weak to broke the kiss so he just let him kiss him. After a few, YunHo broke the kiss and continued Jae’s sentence.
“Too much? No Jaejoong, its not. Compare to everything you did into my life, it was just a piece of dust. Every little thing that you did, makes my days complete, makes me happy. Every single detail you have, every breathe you take, every bit of your personality, Everything you do, makes me now how I, Jung Yunho, Kim Jaejoong’s bestfriend, Love You.”
YunHo’s words made Jae’s heart speed up. Every word was so pure, so sincere and so true but then, he insisted on asking YunHo.
“Are you saying that words because you just feel pity of me?”
YunHo didn’t answer. Instead, he hugged Jaejoong tight. Letting his actions be his response. But then spoke later on.
“Jaejoong, I don’t feel pity of you. I just love you so damn much that I let my actions be the response. From the very beginning, All I ever care about, always love, is you. Always been you. Even now, I still love you to death.”
“But I am still in love with Siwon, I can’t return your feelings just yet…” Jaejoong interrupted and looked at YunHo in the eyes again.
“It’s okay Jaejoong-ah. I am willing to wait. Even if it takes a thousand miles to walk, hundreds of songs to sing, just to be with you… I will, Even if it takes eternity to wait for you, I love you with no boundaries. That is how I love you.” Yunho said and looked at Jaejoong’s eyes again. Sending a message that what he was saying was true.
“Yunho-yah…” Jaejoong said as YunHo started to lean against his face.
As YunHo leans, Jaejoong closed his eyes and waited for the kiss…
But, suddenly, YunHo stopped and said.
“Let’s go inside the house, we are so wet and it’s too cold. I bet you like some Hot Choco..” and walked towards the house and picking up the things he dropped.
Jaejoong got pissed and turned YunHo around and kissed him passionately, telling him that he doesn’t have to wait and that he, Kim Jaejoong, loves him too.
After a few minutes of lip-locking, Jaejoong broke up the kiss, leaving YunHo still close-eyed.
“C’mon Yunnie, I want some hot choco now, It’s too cold here. I missed your Hot Choco ala YunHo.” Jaejoong said while dragging YunHo inside the house and smiling.
Next Morning, It was reported on the news that a man was killed inside his house due to food poisoning. The victim’s name was Choi Siwon and he died after drinking hot chocolate mixed with muriatic acid the night before. It was also reported that he was with a guy last night named Kim HeeChul which was a serial killer using food to kill somebody.
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